Merci..

7.

2011-04-06T00:20:00.002+08:00

The author has moved to http://unarcenciel.tumblr.com/

See ya there~ :)

6.

2011-03-23T13:32:00.002+08:00

Dear Stella Yee,
UMKC ID: 16100599

Congratulations on being accepted into the Bachelor’s program in Business Administration. You have also been awarded the COMMUNITY COLLEGE LEADERSHIP AWARD. COMMUNITY COLLEGE LEADERSHIP AWARD is a renewable award that award student $1,500 plus the difference between Missouri Resident and Non-Resident Fees (For 2010-2011; $10,772 per year).

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Woken up by this mail in my BB yesterday morning might have been the best thing that has happened this whole month.

Pursuing my studies overseas is feasible now that I have been accepted to my chosen University and also granted the scholarships I had wished for.

I had always wanted to graduate from Cambridge, wishing to break out from my past education system. Though that didn't happen for me, I am grateful too as a proper education does not only come from places like Cambridge. It comes from the individual itself, their learning attitude plus their self initiation to get a hold of knowledge.

Now that UMKC happened, it's a time to live my dreams of attaining quality education with an affordable fee to pay. At the same time, breaking away from mass-education.

With these scholarships,

things will be easier on papa now. :)

Though, in times like these, when I feel the time is nearing to leave your home, your comfort zone that I get very nervous just thinking about what awaits me there.

They told me that it's a whole new world out there, but they also told me not to expect too much.

I guess... I will embrace this experience, like a half full glass. Holding on to my cultures and faiths, while opening up to the opportunities to learn and develop myself.. All this in a foreign land might be a good thing, or not.

"Half of me, and another half of the world."

On one hand, I will be placed outside my comfort zone, forcing me to be independent and self-sustained.

While on the other hand, I will be lost for a period of adjusting and finding my way.

Either way, it will take time to discover what is held beyond this continent. I can feel it to be a great something, but at the same time, what IF I only succumb more into the society's quota.

"Outside this home, is something I've only dreamed about."

I close my eyes and for a moment, I can feel the hope of life through these thick cobwebs built around my soul.

"Warmth and serenity upon my blessed skin.."

As soon as I released my eyes to see.... I am afraid once more. To the outside world, I am no one but a person passing by their windowpane. A person who looked like she knew where she was going, where was going to conquer next. But deep inside, only I know lost I am. How frightened I am of the self-engulfing, self-loving world.

"it's a lie when they said that I'll ripen with age."

"It wasn't easy when I was a child and it surely isn't any easier now"

I just wanna know how it feels to live and not to follow.

"i feel..."

It is very much like what Rudyard K. had shared with us in his poem, "IF" that~

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too:

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,

Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,

Or being hated don't give way to hating,

And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;

If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim,

If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster

And treat those two impostors just the same:.

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,

Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,

And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,

And lose, and start again at your beginnings,

And never breathe a word about your loss:

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,

And so hold on when there is nothing in you

Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,

If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,

If all men count with you, but none too much:

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,

Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,

And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

It is the essence in life to be true to your own nature despite people around encouraging and guiding you to be just like "everybody else".

5.

2011-01-18T10:31:00.000+08:00

i love to replay songs i love, again and again. :)

Obsession or Passion?

I think I am a person of both.

Wanting things so badly, I can go through it again and again if I want to.

It knocks me out of balance and sometimes I wonder, am i right for doing such?

Am I listening to my heart or am i actually conforming to what the society wants me to be?

Stella's always the lucky one,

Stells'a always the happy one,

Stella this.. Stella that..

Sometimes, I follow blindly and I lose myself in trying to chase after what "they" would like to see me as. I am a joker, I am a princess, I am the royal guard, I am the chariot driver.

One after another I just listen and follow.

Being obedient.

and i can see that it destroys my initiative-taking, leaving me with procrastination and self-denial.

Now now.. today will be the first day of the term and I have an Economics class at 10.30 this morning. So let's share a lovely short story I came across last night.

In a primary school,

they were having an

assignment for all the

students of the class.

That is, to list down

the 7 wonders

of the world.

This assignment is to be

passed up at the end of the day.

As the bell rang,

students rushed to pass up
their assignment
to the teacher
except for the little shy girl
who walks awkwardly
towards the teacher
and passed up her work,
being the last.

At home,
the teacher goes
through the papers
and analyzes
paper after paper.
The same answers
kept repeating itself,

1. Great Pyramid of Giza
2. Hanging Gardens of Babylon
3. The Great Wall of China
4.Taj Mahal
5. Colosseum
6.Petra
7.Maya Ruins

it was
all right of course...
but then
comes the last paper.
The paper
which the little shy girl
had passed up.
It writes,

1. Being able to see
2. Being able to hear
3. Being able to smell
4. Being able to taste
5. Being able to speak
6. Being able to care
7. Being able to love..

so you see, we don't have to travel across the globe to find wonderful things, we only need to appreciate what we are already have. :)

4.

2010-11-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

“if you're not prepared to be wrong, you'll never come up with anything original.”
-Sir Ken Robinson-

"I'm Original."

Creativity, it lives in every child, and it is up to parents and  guardians to nurture them and let the child grow into their our unique shoes. It is true, what Sir Ken Robinson said, the education we are known to is molded with a one-size-fits-all attitude which is sad because you know what I know too, that we are all different. We are all good at different things.

So what is this thing where we are commanded to follow, this conventional path of life. From kindergarten, to elementary, on to college and then university. You graduate, get a job which you will or will not excel in, but either way you find your spouse and soon you have children of your own. Raise them, live to see your grandchildren and die.

I'm not up for that kinda life.

I want a lot more.

I want to do what I love. What I feel is important. What I believe in. I want to live by my Element. 

Backpacking to unknown places,

Sky diving in cloudless baby blue skies,

Finish a full marathon, 

Volunteer in third world countries,

Have Soup Kitchens,

Deciphering piano sheets and playing them beautifully with my limited knowledge of the lil black beans,

Dancing down the subway by midnights,

Baking chocolate lava cakes on Sunday mornings,

 Fall deeply in love and also survive through heart breaks,

Make picture collages with him, 

Paint our house walls together, and each other,

Have brunches by the lake and dinners by the star-lit skies.

 Have crazy fights, shouting and screaming and later a cozy night by the fire with hot chocolate in our hands and blankies over our shoulders,

.. because I can.

At the end of the day, everything will find its place, when you believe. =)

Those things are the norms which you can do even with a 9-5 job.

Which beings me to a point, i don't want a 9-5 career. I dislike routines, I want to have a different schedule every day. Engaging in different events every month and achieving different goals every year.

But now, do I dare to take those steps out of my comfort zone?

and challenge myself to see what has been hidden outside this veil. 

I am afraid of what I might find out.

of its existence and my own acceptance of it.

But a girl's got to try before she learns anything. 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I guess for now.... it's just me and my dreams for the road ahead. 

3.

2010-11-20T16:15:00.000+08:00

Ouh my mama...

Finals are here again!

Study fever for all ADTP-ers. Just the other day, I saw people studying at upper deck, lower lobby and near Audi too. It's all making me nervous. ಠ_ರೃ

I've been counting my GPAs this term and all i can say is

eeeeehhhhk!!

but you know what they say..

lovely universe, please guide me and let me survive through this week.

2.

2010-11-20T14:30:00.006+08:00

You left me to learn when i am at my weakest.
I thank you, my sweet first love.

You taught me that love is blind and you made me see when you left.
When you left me with lies. Lies even from the start.
You thought I'd never knew, and you ran. Ran and hide.
You thought this heart will never die, but i'm letting you know now.
It's fire has died and all that's left for you is dust.

As cold as ice, you've loved me.
May you rest in peace, my dearest ty.
You are no more in this heart.
Not in this life, not in the next.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have work out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go

It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go.

-Kelly Clarkson, Already Gone-

1.

2010-08-02T01:24:00.002+08:00

for most, it is a symbol of victory.

for her, it is a reminder of her first sweet love.

for him, it means to always be his best.

for now, to me it bring a rebirth.

How after every last number of a count, we go back to 1. For a whole new beginning. A new chapter of a life. A new episode. A fresh start for my readers..

My friends,family and I have been through memorable times in these past 3 months. Many have changed and some had stayed the same. How the world seems to be much simpler than we thought, and at the same time, how complex it can get, because of what we make it.

It doesn't always have to be a matter of black or white, right or wrong, but instead empathy and compassion, kindness and forgiveness.

A very inspiring movie,I'd watched last night. It kept me thinking, through the night, how to be as how he* had said, "..to exceed all expectations." Truly it is a challenge. One which will inspire. Not to motivate, but to inspire and unleash an inner strength in mankind, not known before.

Isn't that something..

a little to think of..

Out of the night that covers me,

Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance

I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid

It matters not how strait the gate,

How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
-William Ernest Henley (1875)-

..a poem which had kept his* soul alive during his 27 years-stay in prison. :)

*Nelson Mandela (from a scene in "Invictus")

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2010-05-12T16:27:00.004+08:00

Dear Bloggie Diary,
Just to keep my experience throughout this trip in my memory, I will share with you the events we go through day by day here in Singapore. Mr.TiongSim is getting his treatment @ Tan Tock Seng Hospital (Novena) and our place to stay varies from time to time, depending solely on how long each of our landlady allows us to stay. Of course, we do pay,but they complain of the Resort World Casino opening and they are flooded with customers. So we being the less profitable customers, they need to give the others their priorities. Our meals come mostly from the hospitals cafeteria or the food court below our rooms. It is all really a very different living from what I am used to and it is time to learn to adapt :)

Day 1 - Gratitude

We arrived in Singapore at about lunch time. Getting our cab and watching the rain trickle down the windows as we got through the roads of Orchard Rd, makes me wonder how our rented room would be like. The last one I visited, was deprived of sunlight and fueled with humidity. Spider-webs decorated the corners of the ceiling and it sends gliding bumps under my skin,thinking that I would have to resort to staying in such a place.

But it proved to be the reverse of my thoughts. The room was well-lit with after-rain sunlights and clean air ran through my lungs as I took my early steps in. We dragged our luggages in and waited by the puffy couch, awaiting the landlady to direct us to our room. She was cleaning when we got there. In her yellow rubber gloves and army-printed boots, she was going about wiping, spraying, throwing, beating the dust out of our room as she yelled to us. Yes, she doesn't talk, she yells..

It was really terrible whenever we asked her something,she would yell the answer back at us,though we know that she doesn't mean it. I guess she was just so used to yelling in her own defense. You know a single lady in the land of other's, just barely getting by with the profits from renting rooms. She shall be named, Ms. Lily. :)

Once inside the room, I practically threw myself on the self-proclaimed side of the bed and closed my eyes just for a few seconds..

and that was when I had fully absorbed that, "This is it. The start of my journey."

I heard my name being called, I got up and as sleepy as I was from my nap, I could see that the other 3 needed dinner. Badly~ XD So we prepared and went to hunt for economically friendly food. We surveyed and there were 3 choices below the apartment.

1. The Food Court

2. The chicken rice corner

3. The Ayam Penyet restaurant <--(The most expensive of the 3)

and we decided.

The Food Court.

It was jam-packed. If it wasn't for Mr.TiongSim limping,we would have never gotten a seat. -I'm sorry Mr.TiongSim, for having to endure all the waiting and stands as the 3 of us tried to get seats.- and that was also when he started his Duck+SiuYoke rice streaks.. For every meal from then on-which is an additional 3 meals-, that was what he had XD I really wonder how could he like it THAT much. XD

After dinner,we went for for "air" ourside the mall and the reward we had for survinving the first half day was the Ice-Cream Wafer awaiting us outside Taka. :D It was heavenly. Though it is only $1 each, I was as happy as I would have been having a new Tommy bag. It was the joy of having to so scrupulously saving money the whole day and to find something so fitting for it's price at the end of the day for dessert. Uh~! I felt such rush of gratitude for all that has been before the ice-cream :D

The night passed peacefully, as I fell asleep with thoughts of ty ;) Tomorrow will be the start of the journey for Mr.TiongSim....

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2010-05-08T22:40:00.004+08:00

Dear bloggie diary,

I have only been home in a total of 3 days this month. It wasn't supposed to be that way,but considering the circumstances which kept transporting me overseas, I shan't complain.

I've been slacking today. Played games, instead of packing for Singapore. My flight will be at 10am tomorrow and at 11.03pm, I have yet to pack. I wish I have a mellow soundtrack for myself now.
Lady Antebellum- Need You Now

Singapore will be filled with hospital trips, library trips and maybe.. If I'm lucky, a trip to the theatre too :) I heard about the beautiful Botanical Garden @ NUS too. Big field of greens and healthy sunlight as I rest with my MuMu ^u^

p.s. do check out The Shadow Effect if you can bloggie dears~ :D
It's a better understanding of how The Secret works too. Princess Lemon just introduced it to me this morning and I absolutely love the message they're passing through the movie. Here's the -TraileR-
^.^

p.p.s. I have a couple RiNg with Princess Lemon now~! Promise I'll take care of this one really gOodly, this time!! :D Thank YoU,darLing~ c3

And I wonder if I ever crossed your mind.
For me it happens all the time.
It's a quarter after one,
I'm all alone and I need you now.

Said I wouldn't call,
But I lost all control and I need you now.
Another shot of whisky,
Can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you come sweetly as you did before.

It's a quarter after one,
I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.

......

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all :)

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2010-04-26T18:33:00.003+08:00

Dear bloggie diary,

I'm in Sing now,typing to you this post.

I'm in lOve with Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice. To the point where I can read it even when I'm squishing at the MRT and not hear a thing other than a voice telling me the stories. Reading them out word by word in my mind :D

Elizabeth being the sensible and logical one, also the most unlikely one to have a fairy-tale story in her life. Though it may seem that way to most,she turns out to be the one who has the most exciting love journeys among her sisters.

Life is unpredictable.

Things always appear as they not be. It is all, after all an illusion of the eyes.

And then there is this thought in my mind for the past week. What does it mean to be happy? Being financially free but mentally and emotionally abused? or Being just ordinarily comfortable but flourished with gladness in the heart?

hmp..

Like how I've always wanted to be successful and famous and high and mighty in my future, but what does all these really mean at the end,when it's time for me to leave?

I say that I want to use these powers to influence people to do charity. Because with fame and money, people tend to follow. But instead of trying to get people following,why not start with myself ei, as of now first?

All along, I was just clouded by how people define success, believing that I need it too, then giving myself reasons why I should believe them. When in truth, there's another path which others just choose to disregard because it's not as glamourous and not as exciting as the first.

That's what they think.

But I plead to differ from it.

Materialism.

will drain you out of our moral+spiritual values.

It might be super, for the first few months, or years, but you know well enough how the rich never have the time to spend their hard-earned money and procrastinate even more when it comes to spending time with their family, which they initially wanted to before they started working so hard.

In years time, working so much and never giving time to step back and enjoy life, will just erase the whole point of working so hard in the first place.

Sad isn't it? How we lose ourselves when we indulge too much in something..

I'm still trying to find my equilibrium. I tend to always get to the most extreme of things, overindulging myself in almost everything I do.

You know, you don't have to always be the best because you are already wonderful as how you are~ :)

this crazy love we have,it's really insane! :D

=+:34:+=

2010-04-09T16:11:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

What a day, today~

Life is tough,huh.

Maybe it's too naive to state that its filled with decisions, because who wouldn't know that..

Unless, you're a lazy-pampered-non-productive daughter like me. I feel so bad that i have spent so much of the Dragon Slayer's money.. and up till now,I didn't really give him a feeling of comfort for the future.

The people too, they talk when they do not know you well enough. Whatever is may,that you do, they have their comments. But at the end of the day, does it really matter what they say?

Or is the essence of the experience which you have learned in the journey of finding yourself be more important?

meow~ ^.^

=+:33:+=

2010-03-28T15:22:00.002+08:00

Dear blogGie diary,

You know what's the problem with humans?

They think too much. They always think that people are looking at them,judging them all the time.

But the truth is,no one really cares that you're not dressed all-well like a doll today, or that you didn't have enough sleep.

well,true~ they will talk about it.. for how long do you think?

Maybe most,10 mins? and then they proceed with their tasks for the day.

So does it matter that much to have that 10 mins of memory in their minds?

i'm guessing not.

so do just be yourself and let go~ ^.^

No one loves a sour-plummed-person.

It's no fun.

ahAhah p.s. There's a change of course in STella's life now.

Out with the old and in with the new.

All-new values to be appreciated and more people to be loved.

-I'm not gonna write you a love song,

i'm not gonna write you to stay,

You know i'd walk the seven seas when I really have a reason,

To write you a love song,

today-

Dance danCe, move yoUr bOdy,

be sOmeone yoU've always wanted to be.

you don't have to wait for tomorrow to be someone ExTraordiNary.

On performing arts:

have you ever sat on the front of a theatre?

Looking up,you see the outlines of the casts positioned on the stages.

The smooTH movements of their body,every detailed movement they make,

with no words,

the expression on their faces becomes more than you need to know what they're "saying"

their faces cringes, tightly, the sorrow of losing hope of justice upon the human race,how selfish one can be when it comes to their benefits...

and then they break into smiles, big broad smiles, realising that this is a chance to engrave even deeper within themselves the values of human equality. A blessing in disguise.

If anything has to be changed,it has to be accomplished within oneself before it can become contagious to others.

I've never seen anything as beautiful. My first experience watching "To Kill a Mockingbird" @ The Drama Centre,National Library, Singapore and it blew me away, broke me down to tears and left me hungry for more of the remaining emotions after the show.

How pure the emotions,

How solid the characters portrayed,

How smooth each words are spoken into my ears,

How so lucky I was to have been able to watch a show with my own eye.

^.^

~*~

Something always brings me back to you,

It never takes too long,

No matter what I said I'll do,

I still feel you here till the moment i'm gone,

You hold me without touching me,

keep me without shame .

I never wanted anything so much,

To drown in your love,

And not feel your rain.

Set me free,

let me bee,

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

You love me 'cause I'm fragile,

And I thought that i was strong,

But you touch me for a little while,

All my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free,

Leave me be,

i don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

I hope you'll see the sun shine up above and be happy,

because you are to me my gravity.

Something always brings me back to you,

it never takes too long.

Someday we'll know,why? =)

=+:32:+=

2010-03-15T23:26:00.003+08:00

Life is..

a meaningful dash in between the years carved on your tombstone.

*SmileS*

=+:31:+=

2010-02-13T22:14:00.003+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

I realised that I poOpie-the-lOve faMily gaTherings! =D
aHAHAhaHAhaHAhhAHhaHAhahhaHAHhHahHAahAHahHhHAaHAahHAhaHAhaHAHaAhaAaAaAhahHAhahAHhaA

SS-nye saya~~~~ *.*

hihihihi..

I has my first debut on the paternal-side family gathering today. Thought that it'd be some boring-dOng-thingy.. bUt.. It was actually really nice and uplifting,you know ^.^
Getting to see so many strangers and not knowing where they come from.. Knowing that you've seen them at gatherings every year but has never really took the initiative to get to know them and *BOOOOOM*-- today I just had a BIG HuGe urge to talk to them,make that bond families which has been neglected over the years,becaus in my younger years,I've been too shy to mingle.

and there I went,talking and asking whose who.. and it was wonderful to know that you have suCh a bIG BIG family, with everyone in so many industries of work. Good-nEss graciOus, there is so much to learn from the world and when you have a family of at least 100, at least... why wouldn't you wanna learn from them instead?

They are family,after-all.. and them seeing me a little girl of 19, "ah! what does she know?" XD bUt if yOu show interest, they will talk. Every one loves talking about themselves, what they do,what they have to offer. That,I think is the beauty of sharing, though you definitely cannot get their 5,10,15,20.. 40 years of knowledge in that few hours,bUT what you can do,is to start knowing the person -as family-. ^.^

Seeing how he behaves, his talking flow, the way his ideas comes out like his personality does in his words. It's such a wonderful thing to experience,in my opinion. Tomorrow will be another busy day to visit grandparents's brothers.. It'll be a FUN!! =D and not forgetting Nat Nat's CNy Open-hOuse! UuUh! DouBle,fun! =D aHAHAHA

and today, and Uncle of mine,told me that relationships,for him.. comes and goes.. Like his 7-year relationship,when it ended, It didn't even hurt him the least bit. He just took it with the flow and here he is.. 3 years and on with his current gf. and he's happy~ =)

That really made me think. That maybe.. nothing is definite,not even when someone says that
"I love you, forever.."

scary,isn't it? The power of words, and the weakness of the heart when you're in love. =) aHHAha

dan.. saya had a veRy VeRy inspiraTioNal talk wiTh her today --> *look down,buNg buNg* =P

aHAhaHA NoOB-nye,my phOtoshoP-ing XD soRrY,men!! Shall imprOve and re-tRy on oUr pics again next time. Maybe Yan's will be NeXt! =P aHAHAH
aNyhow,baNyaks the we talks and she always has a way to make me feel better~ ^.^ She appreciate the things that others take for granted and her little gestures are the sweetestSssSssSS,i tell yOu! =D
aHAHAHA tHere she is my, nOmu.noMu.ChUA.est.chiNggU-ya! ^.^

soo ofF I go,pergi tido.. for tomorrow wiLL be an early one~ ^.^ woot woot!

and..

HapPy CNY,every one~!
!!TUng tRuNg!! tOng ChIang~!! tOng chIang!! tOng ChIANG!!

*BoOom bOooM*

May yOu be blessed wiTh tHoUSANDs and huNdreds of laugHter and joY and hapPiness every where yOu go~~ ^.^

*^o^*

=+:30:+=

2010-02-12T00:41:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

something's been bothering me..

The Volleyball-er,

The Marathon Runner,

The Ballerina,

The Cheerleader,

The Debater,

The Discuss-thrower,

Do we have to be the best in everything that we do?

For the sake of heightening standards~

What happened to the days when you do something simply because you love it?

How did it become all stress and pressure from peers and coach and seniors and mentors,telling yOu that yOu HAVE to do this and that, taking all the fun away from everything yOu loved about what you're doing~?

maybe because i'm uncapable.. 24.7.

uuuuh~ na na na na..

Nomu nOmu...Mi-chO-soH~

"-.-"

2NE1~ I don't wanna be without yOu,bOy~

baBy baBy baBy,jogeum eosaekhajiman seoro,

Baby baBy baBy, ajk saranghago innuende,

baBy baBy baBy, duryeopgineun hajimanseodo,

Kkeuchiboijiman nan gueraedo,

OnlY yOu,bOy~ ^.^

Mr.P {=P}

=+:29:+=

2010-02-08T22:45:00.005+08:00

Dear blogGie diary,

I've been crying for most of the half day that I'm awake today.

for him.. again.

silly me.

And the 6 of them, my lovely family dearest, were there for me all the way, with chinese translations and harsh advices with love songs to round it up.. hahah =.) It makes us all closer now.

They say that I pamper him too much.

Asen ko2 say never be too good to a guy, there'll only run further away.

I guess to a certain extent, I'm starting to believe what they say.

I was just wishing that maybe.. he would appreciate me more when I'm always there for him and be nice, and trust him, but no.. he just takes my for granted and, as I've heard, he wrote that he blamed me for the break.

That I created all the problems. When I've never even asked for anything more than just his care and attention. Stupid boy~ =P

hahaha. well, no use contemplating what has been and what's un-changable now. =)

ja-nehh....

I promise to only be a good friend to him from now on. No more falling head over heels for him anymore,okay STella! ^.^

jaaaa~

I'm finding a world,with Pierre in it~! ^.^

ahAhahA Pierre darling, only 6 months more,and i'll be there to chase my dreams.

wiTh no distractions from him anymore =P

List of Contentments:

1. I'm happy that I can feel that my nose is blocked.

2. I'm happy that Hubert-o knows not to say "bad words", because he knows that it's rude.

3. I'm happy that the lil ones like story-times before bedtime.

4. I'm happy that uncle can walk by himself now,with oNly the help of a cane.

5. I'm happy that i found his blog, cause now I know,why was I treated like before.

6. I'm happy that I only know that I was "the other girl" now,after I've started to live without him.

7. I'm happy that I have such wonderful people around me all the time, -my family-.

8. I'm happy that I am going to The UK to advance myself more.

9. I'm happy that someday,I will find him.

10. I'm happy that I can wear Asen ko2's Blue Japan jersey to Old Town tonight. ^.^

=+:28:+=

2010-02-03T22:43:00.005+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

Today is a very hapPy eXcitIng day! =D

bUt firstly,

my darLing Ji Ji went to Aussie already. and Ji.. if yOu happen to read this post,I want you to know that I didn't cry at the airport today when you left,because I didn't feel a bye bye coming..

I just feel a temporary separation.

We'll meet again in 1 1/2 years,kay! ^.^ that time,yOu can let oUt whatever saMpat-ness yOu accumulated in Aussie and I shall greet yOu wiTh my British accent adi~ wiTh Cat Cat!! XD aHAha

so don't be sad,and be strong there,kay~! =D

because

I saranghae-yOu! ^.^

HaHAha.. and so I shall layout my day for yOu now,bloggie dear~

5am-Wake Up! and go airport to send Ji Ji! =D

11am- drop dead on my bed with sleepiness (i was like a walking zombie already like--> o.o)

2pm-get up and quickly shower and follow Vera to Amway's HQ (to survey the product and management system)

5pm- come back and then go airport to fetch Asen ko2, bUt......

JreNg JrenG jReng!!!

This's the exciting part!!

My car broke down half way.. while it was raining! Mum panicked and called Atek ko2 to pick us up with the biGger car while I try to make some sense alking with the ING insurance lady to get me a tow-truck man~ XD

uuuh,It was very kan ciong,cause my car broke down near a U-turn,where it was starting to jam already somemore! XD kaN jIong betul!! XD

ahAha aNd.. in the end,mum drove the other car to the airport while I wait with Atek ko2 in my car for the tow-truck man.. It was a very pitiful sight..

Me wanting to shi shi so much already,but there's not toilet nearby~ so I had to just endure whispering "shishishishishi" in my mind like how I was told to focus on something till it goes away,in meditation class {I was seriously hoping it'll somehow work XD}

so there i was,crawled up on the slanted chair, with the window opening just a lil for ventilation and the rain dip drip drip twink twink... sleeping i went and soon an hour or more has passed and he has yet to come.

He picked up my call, sounding like he's heard of these kind of customers' rants so many many times,yet.. he responded with kind words of comfort assuring me that he's really trying his best to survive the jam already XD poor man~

hahahaha~ The tow-truck was so cool! Thought it'd be big and dusty and smeeely.. eeeeeWwWy-kind,bUt NO!

It was nothing near there,it was suPer clean,i tell yOu! and it smells like lavender inside, bUt yes it IS BIG! XD He must be a very hygIenic man,o~ very nice toUch indeed,the cOld air-cond air,instead of hot stiNky air XD

It was a veRy suPER experience! He can U-turn his truck to embarrass any cool driver I've seen. His tOw-truck practically swept through the turn,bUt he didn't or not even close to knocking the divider or the car by the side! woaaah! damn cool!

0.0

I can proudly say that... I've been on a tow-truck! ^.^

That was my adventure for toDay,bloggIE DEAR, owh and I've PURPLE hiGhlights on my hair now with shades of brOwn and red tOo~!

seXay! XD I like,I like.. althOugh the bRown and red wasn't supposed to be there. It's just an effect of bleachiNg-errors XD bUt I like the abstraCt cOlour valUe it adds to my hair~ ^.^

aHAhah NoW i shall go shOwer adi laer,cause PS and Yiin wiLl be here soon~ =D

anYong,bloGgie

darling.... ^.^

=+:27:+=

2010-02-02T01:04:00.005+08:00

Dear bloGGie diary,

I'm.... sleepy.

My eyes hurt.

and i i i *yawn* o..

I want to be a person more humble than myself.

I think it'll be good to list down things which I appreciate in life,like bradder Vic..

Maybe then,I will slowly plant the seeds of contentment. And slowly maybe my feelings will change, no longer in need of approval of others or be tempted by all the material things anymore.

So for my first list of Contentment~^.^:

1. I'm happy that I can still grow these finger nails to protect my inner finger meat.

2. I'm happy that my nails can grow long so that I can experiment my painting with the nail polishes.

3. I'm happy that my eyes feels tired,to let me know of my sleepy-ness.

4. I'm happy that I have wonderful filtration in my mouth to breathe as an alternating from this block-nose.

5. I'm happy that I have a full tummy after tonight's dinner.

6. I'm happy that my uncle's legs are getting stronger by the day.

7. I'm happy that he's smiling lots too,compared to last time. His smiley muscles are making him glow now too.

8. I'm happy that Carmen's happy with her new hairstyle,because she looks beautiful.

9. I'm happy that these golden marker mark cannot come off my skin,because I can spend more time trying to scrub my dead cells off those parts.

10. I'm happy that I actually feel thirsty now and I shall have some orange juice@1.43a.m. now...... XD

weeeeeee~~~~ oFf I go.

ahAHAHah.. anYong,bloGgie daRling~ ^.^

=+:26:+=

2010-01-28T14:59:00.005+08:00

Dear bloGgie Diary,

Spent half of my day in hospital today~ and andddddddddddd.............

I found out that I have 3 jabs to take now XD

aaah!

1 would be some kind of vaccine which I have missed in Form3

2 would be the Meningococcal Vaccine and,

3 would be the Cervical Cancer jab ^.^

scare me,wui~ 5 jabs altogether.. oH-mymy XD

This'll be fun,ei~

then mOving on to a higher note,I need to tell you about yesterday, bloGgie!

Ohh! I went to the new Taylor's Lakeside Campus and it was beautiful~ ^.^ Don't know about you,bUt I loved it. Though I do think that they should have a LOT and I really mean a WHOLE LOT of sign boards! XD

It's way toOo biG for visitors to fiNd anywhere XD ahAHah I got so lost when i reached that oh-mama, everything was glassy blue,greyish concrete-y and whIte walls,lots and lots of white walls everywhere I turn XD ahAHa Though the garden Square at the centre is really nice,if it's cloudier ^.^ It would make a really nice place to just chiLlex or have a cuP of tea and a gOod gOod book ^.^

ah! and the Lecture Hall 12! Visitors,do visit this LT. Honestly,it is a MUST-SEE! =D it's steep down with graduate seats with a lecturer's table on a slight staged platform, that all faciNg a wall of GLASS which overlooks the lake~

uuuuuuh! just beautiful~~ ^.^

ahAhahA I went to see Chef Farouk. to ask about TVU and he is,I would say.... VERY VERY NICE to talk to+benevolent foodie enthusiast+suPer helpful with lots and lots of Informations!! =D

Glad i went to see him,despite Phoenix saying that it's a bad "CHI-ed" day today! XD

AND i met so almost all my favOurite lecturers and owh,they are just still as lovely as ever! =D or even mOre lovable nOw! XD ahAHAH Like Chef Fadzly+Chef Amir+Chef Vincent+Chef Rex+Chef May+Chef Norizan! =D It was so GReat to see them again and be able to listen to their words of wisdoms~ ^.^

wished I'd seen the rest too,bUt I think they're too busy,o.. can't find them anywhere in the college~

and my dear seniors... ahaAHHA Keat belanja me a fish ball tOday! XD cause he said,

"got extra mar~"

kind right,my seniors..

*~ngeok ngeok~*

i had a really good day yesterday experiencing Taylor's Lakeside Campus. Definitely have to visit them again before I go to UK!

and bawa makanan there also! =D someone placed their order adi~ XD

well, I'm going for a meeting @5 later, STarbucks~ then meditatiNg wiTh ze PeiSong! =D

and now it's nappy time~

zzzzZzzzZzzzzz.............................................

zZz..

❥~

pretend tweeet XD

2010-01-28T01:40:00.003+08:00

*Tweeeeet tweEet*

The eyes to see the glazing brown creation.

The nose to take in the warm, sweet aroma.

The fingers to feel its peerless texture.

The tongue to savour its tender juicy-ness.

The ears to listen to every munch and crunch,

of a rich slice of game.

-and that is food to Me & all of my lima senses~

^.^

anyonghaseyo! STella sumida~ =D

*twoOouT*

=+:25:+=

2010-01-27T02:18:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

What's this feeling that I have that I am afraid of going to UK?

Scared of the expectations and competitions.

silly me~

It's partly maybe cause the chefs make it seem so effortless moving around the kitchen, making STella envious with their flair in cooking. Like the chefs in Bocuse d'Or.

Whereas,I feel that I'm still so clumsy and at the speed of a young snail compared to all the senior cheetahs.

...mehhhh...

I have to stop comparing myself to all my seniors.

and carve my own path.

=+:24:+=

2010-01-19T03:27:00.008+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

~Clarke Quay~

Singapore 17-22.2010

^.^

and STella and Ang Su, survived.....!!!!

YeSs, the Reverve Bungee~! =D

AhahahAH It was freakiNg awesOme!! =D The Best World-stoPping-Adrenaline riDe~ XD

Anyone who comes to Sing.shOuld come visit,yo! Before you get pregnant or old,man! ahAhah ^.^

I've been in Sing for 2 days now.. well, 3 now since it's already going to be 4am now. OMg what Am I doing up so early? =P ahAHA

aNyway,I really should not be so emo emo in my blog XD people are starting comment now,

"yorrr... why so emOsioNal one?"

ihhh ihhh~~ sorry for the negativity,orang2 yg membaca ^.^

shall puMp puMp mOre positiviTy in.

UmPh umPh!

ah,and so abOut Sing.. crazy man,I walked so much t

ill I feel all my blood clotting at the base of my feet. Very tiring,bUt very satisfying~ Lots of shOps,boutiques, restaurants, OMG the restos,all so cOol one yOu know! XD

I should probably have another trip,just for eating~ o.o

hahah pig.

Maybe in April,during FHA{Food & Hotel Asia-Culinary Challeng 2010} Definitely! ^.^

and and.... you know,i spend so much in 2 days -.-" eeeehk~ but this is not the time to control~~ so.. ummm... alternative.. save on food and more on shopping,please =) cause cause hor.. I think I' changing my style,lil by lil.. wooooot wooot!

into something a lil more stylo laer,you know. Something like this leather skirt I just bought from Cotton On! so cheap,abOut rm70 OnLY,leather you know~! =P

wanted to get their.. "u ling hm uh erie hmmm" bUt they're all so fanCy pretty.. and no one to see also.. =( so no point laer. later ss only =P ahHAA

and and I found my fav Dutch buTter crisp. Uh.. yUmM YUmm! =D and it's oNly for RM18 for 2 bOxes ^.^

Not bad right? I'm a saver shopper.. I just hope my remaining money will last me for another 3 days {o.o} *bing*

btw,I miss rice..

the feel of the rice beads rolling on my tongue into my mouth and *munch munch ...herbychickencube.. munch munch* uhHhMmMm~

Yang Zhou Fried Rice.

I only mamam mee and noodles and bihun and yellow mee for these 2 days. Oh! and bread.. ah~! A Must Check Out!

-BREAD SOCIETY-

another baby from BreadTalk

This time,with Chef Takaaki Nishikawa

He suPer cOol baker Chef! =D Rep for Japan in the MondialDuPain Competition last year ^.^ cOol,heh~~ ^.^

okay laer,nak tidur sudah.

GooDNIght~

^.^

sweet dreams,dear bloGgie~

-i got his message today with a "Bye"-

wonder what does he mean.. bye bye or bye "bye"? =)

if he reads this,he might think I'm thinking too much again,heh..

maybe I just am,cause i care =P

aHAhah ^.^

=+:23:+=

2010-01-04T02:51:00.002+08:00

Fireflies..

I like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly..

-Adam Young-

STella hits a self-realisation point.

You know sometimes when you feel like being a better person,and you start thinking of ways to improvise. I can't stop feeling that,to the point where I get so sad when I can't achieve it. And you know how they say that when you make a mistake,learn from it. If you make a mistake once,it's not your fault, and if you make a mistake twice,you're the fool.

World,honestly i've done the same mistakes, aplenty of times. over and over again. and you know what,i feel remorse,yes. bUt life goes on. I don't know why.. I used to have regrets,but now...

i can't think of anything that I would want to change in my past. It's not the best and it's not the most wonderful for any girl,but it helped,you know. in my growing up. Bit by bit whenever I think back,I learn a lil more about myself to do what I can to be better.

So peeeps,don't everrrrrr let anone tell you that you're not good enough for you,because if they do, just

...........................................run run and run and run away from them!

because you don't deserve them,

yOu deserve BETTER!

and now.. don't cry over that guy who left you,no more.

It is true,there are many other fishys in the sea..

trying to fix their GPS to search for you soon ~<3

I fulfilled a few of my wishes during my trip to Indon =)

Painted my toe nails in rainbow colours

Purple, Pink, Yellow, Green, Blue

Painted my finger nails with Goth tones

Red Black

Practised Eye-liner wearing and make-up removing rituals for soft and supple skiN in the morningS! uummMmMm-mUaHhhH! ^o^

Got the phone I waited 8 months for,so that the price dropped =P haha..

Found myself the prettiest bOokshop wiTh amaziNg bOok orders.

Times BookBuilding:

A book building made out of 90% glass

which allows the lights to beautifully blanket the book shelves

with the bright spot lights enhancing the angelic ambience.

With the lights,you'd think it'd be freaking hot,wei..

bUt no no no.

Air-conds are blasted to the full maximum,

that's why you'd feel cold and through certain shelves only you'd feel warmer

with the rays of light,mostly on the Politics shelves.

They even have a reading nest hanging from the roof.

Way cooler than reading corners~ Shall take a pic for you,on my next visit! =)

aNd a new read of mine.. Visit braDder Vic's bLog~ =) It really helped me in my down-est moment,{when all my plans and ambitions,which i've planned for months are being rejected by the DragonSlayer and the PhoenixQueen scaring the boom out of me, spoiling me with luxuries,making me doubt my rusty survival skill when i'll be out in the world alone soon, and TY.. too busy to bother about me} =)

don't know how you'll take it but i'm loving his blog to bits,like how I'm loving Adam Young@Owl City now.. I love their notes and rhyThm of words about life~o3

^.^

The world is a beautiful place.

even without that ...weekend when i loved you.

=+:22:+=

2009-12-29T02:42:00.003+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

Got a hate-mail today~ well not really,just a rather disturbingly descriptive mail in my FB mailbox today,after i ignored her friend request.

Have a look see,shall we? ^.^

she said:

OYOO!!!Let me give you some suggestions.
1)You're fat.
2)You're ugly.
3)Your mum is fat too. (ask her to keep, ok?)
4)Your mum is ugly.
5)Your sisters, Calista and Celine, have a pig+dog FACE (ask them to edit every photos they want to post on facebook.
THAT"S ALL!!!!

-amanda qua-

Owh.. Thank You for your attention to our physical features,babe~ =D haha.. suCh lOving words yOu have choosen.

Anyhow,she shall go by unnoticed as I secretly do think that she has a sad sad life.. alone,in her own house,deprived from her parent's attention,in need to destroy others to fulfill her sinful satisfactions. poor girl,she is.

Hope someone helps her,out of her own miserable world. =/

hihihi.. anyway,ty's going back to UK tomorrow. Will never hear from him again for some time,i think. As he'll be too busy with his work. Don't think I should disturb him,but shall leave messages for him just to let him know that I still think of him,when I feel like it =P

haha p.s. he's been better,with me =P ahAHAH

Night niGht,blogGie! Going to proceed with my planNing of the "weekly-restaurant" now! =D On my newly dowloaded iWork-2009! =D ahAHA

aNyong~ ^.^

=+:21:+=

2009-12-26T11:38:00.002+08:00

Dear blogGie Diary,

I realised..

DreamS
+
Creativity
+
Unability to control my flow of ideas
+
Too maNy ideas at the same time
+
Laziness
=
Procastination with a biG faT Disappointment topPing on top~

*sigh*
should start changes now..

Merry B'latEd X'Mas everyone~! =)

=+:20:+=

2009-12-21T00:13:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

I feel weary, and troubled today at work. Big chef scolded me today. He asked why am I doing in the kitchen. That I shouldn't go to work anymore,if all I want is to play. How come I'm working today. I wasn't here yesterday, Sunday. Don't play like a child, if you want to be in the kitchen.

Yea,it went something like that. I thought that he was angry because I was away for 6 days suddenly and just appear, again. That I would understand,so I explained that I was on an MC leave, because that was really what it was. Besides,today at work,I was still sniffing my way and I sound like a man with my throat still so coarse. But that wasn't the reason,it seems.

Chef Val told me that Big Chef thought that I skipped my off day and Chef Val was collecting all my off days and give it to me all at once to go and play outside >.< That's why he was so upset that I'm not focused on my work and keep wanting to play..

Plus,I was just stunned because I thought today IS Sunday.. and yesterday was Saturday. But when I told him,he just said in a deep belLy voice, "No..no..no.. Don't give excuses. Get out of the kitchen if you want to play."

Owh,i feel like just crying on the spot out of disappointment in myself. How did I get myself caught at such a situation.. =/

Next time around,I shall be smarter than to get in trouble so innocently like that,bloggie diaRy!!
I MUST!!

and I talked about "him" to my colleagues today. And they commented, "How come I've never seen you so HapPy like this before?"
HUH!! =D

Cause I never talked abOut "Him" before,that's why~ XD
I don't know,why am I so happy about him coming back when I'm so scared to fall for him all over again. >.<

or maybe,it's already too late to stop~

p.s. There is a kind man Eurasian man today near the Raja Chulan road who got off his motor-bike to help me pass through a-inconsiderate-taximan-who-incosiderately-blocked-half-of-the-road-with-his-parking, by pushing in my right rear mirror for me,as I can't reach it,unless I stretch way out of my seat XD aNd YoU knOw what!!

He even came to help me push the mirror back to it's own position after I've moved forward towards the traffic light. I owe my driving safety to him! and I thanked him lots after. But just to thank him again,

The Motor-Man with the plate,
W*F 4245
THANK YOU,ReaLly! =D

*the 2nd alphabet was missing XD

=+:19:+=

2009-12-20T00:21:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie Diary,

I have officially been off from training for 5 days now. sucks,i know.
and I hope if i'm better,when this nose doesn't snort with mucus anymore, I will go back to work =) though I have an MC for tomorrow from the kind doctor. Nevertheless~

I spent the day waking up so heavily.. to his message.. and went for breakfast~ got myself a DVD to sink myself in for the evening and the rest of the day was just.. Resting,again~ XD

hahah.. Today's show is 500 Days of Summer ^.^ It's really good for the "almost-healed-broken-hearted" people,you know. iT supports the idea of moving on.. it defines how love exists..through the coincidences in life which ties us all together.

Some mistaken it for fate, or true love/soul mates and everlasting love. But if.. only one hand's clapping,there is no way even for fate/true love to create an everlasting love. Which brings me to believe that to be in the so-called "in love" state, 2 people.. HAVE to be in the same level of liking-ness. Loving-ness. =)

If not,i should think,one day or another,the other party will get tired out. Because they try to hard. ouh~~ bUt after this movie, I feel more confident now. That I can live with myself, until.. I grow up to be someone whom I LOVE too.

Wouldn't that be better? =)

than being lost and dragging someone down with me too? XD haha.. aNywaysssss.... I shall update my diary now. Anyong, dear bloGgie~ =) see yOu soOon~ =)

-Fate is an exaggeration of pure coincidences,felt only by the love-blinded-

STella * ^.^

=:+18+:=

2009-12-19T12:49:00.003+08:00

Dear blogGie diaRy,

He's back~ =)

Read----> Jane Austen's Guide to Romance{The Regency Rules} =D it's so definitive and i find some of the things to be quite true. =)

It's not like the usual dating book who teaches you to time your time before you pick up your call,so that you won't sound too available, or don't date twice a week, to keep the chase. Nothing like that! =)

Instead, they encourage that if you like someone,make it clear. Because good guys likes it when you like them, that they're worthy of your love. haha.. and of course you won't want to date someone whose scared and insecure of their feelings, if you trample all over their heart like the one described in the paragraph above~ =)

and she did say what kind of guys should be avoided. and.. he.. sounds like one of them XD ahhhhh!! XD

g2g for brunch now~

ta-ta..

p.s. Happy B'daY,MadDie dear~! =D

-sarang,don't leave me again.-

=+:17:+=

2009-12-17T13:37:00.004+08:00

Dear bloGGie diary,

I've been down with fever for 2 days now. Yep, that means 2 days off work. I know I should be happy somehow, bUt I feel like poopie missing out in action from the kitchen ='(

I've watched Julie&Julia last night with Callie,sinCe I can't move much around the house,except make my own breakfast,take my med,and off to bed again >.<

It's a story revolving around Julia Child{The first woman who first introduced French Cooking to America} and Julie Powell, {a bloGger who blogs abOut her coOking adventure through Julia's cOokbook -Masterign the Art of French Cooking-}. It's a true story,btw. More like 2 true stories and how they intertwine. Check out her blog for more~

Though, Julie Powell.. she wasn't very happy with how Julie is in the movie. According to JulieP., she said that she's way tougher than the Julie depicted on screen,bUt maybe with that aura of fragile-ness that's being shown in the acting Julia, it creates the suspense of whether she can pull the Julie/Julia Project through~

Conclusion-ly,I love this movie to bits! ^.^ Thou shall watch it too when thou got time,ye~ This's how the cover looks like. ----------------->
Keep an eye out for it. ^.^

One thing that changed my way of thinking of cooking from Julia.. Is that you don't have to be in the norm, even in the cooking world.

Like how you cook something as simple as an omelette. Julia did it in a kind of a no-rules,but-please-follow-the-guidelines kinda way. Watch her video, and you'll know what I mean XD

She doesn't do it like how the super strict,pan-flying chefs cook their omelette. She's everywhere. seriously. She can just not want to use the pan and drop it off by the counter and the usage of hands.. oh,she uses lots of those. But you know what,I love her~ ^.^

She's definitely got her own style! With cooking and also how to go about her life. She's like this always joyous tall lady whose hard to hate,you know. And she is really adorable, the way she handles herself when she's in trouble. It's really nice to just watch her. No wonder her husband, Paul Cushing Child, has been so deeply in love with her, like
"The butter to my bread and the breathe to my life"
quoted,Paul Child.

He'd look at her as she cooks,lifting the spoon to her lips to taste the her newest concoctions for the day. He waited for her to finish her class in the mornings, to lunch together and make love afterwards,before she goes for her afternoon class. She's living "The Notebook" life,isn't she?

ooowh.. how envious I am of her. X)

welllllll,
I'm planning on getting some of her books. Which some are titled,
*Mastering the Art of French Cooking {Vol1}
*Mastering the Art of French Cooking {Vol2}
*The French Chef Cookbook
*From Julia Child's Kitchen

wonder how much all these 4 will cost XD shall start to save some cash now,ei bloGgie~ ^.^

saya nak pergi take a nap now. I think the flu med's taking it's effect now. zzzzzzzzz....

sleepy..

night~

.love.

=+:16:+=

2009-12-04T02:46:00.003+08:00

Dear blOggie Diary,
I am back from my, tak tahu how many weeks holiday. 4,I think. It was initially to attend Cous. Sally's wedding, and help out with the ceremony and such, bUt I took the chance too,to clear my mind off things, namely T.Y. and my training~ ^.^ To start off,fresh again.
I went to Thai-Malaysia-Medan-Jakarta-Jogyakarta-Jakarta-Malaysia ^.^ The last 5 being in 1 week. I'm pretty proud of that, traveling so much. Just like my dad! ^.^

And throughout my journey this time, I realised.. that you know, there is SO MUCH more to life than being sad and hurt and just letting things/people mess with our feelings, so much so that we're being blinded by the beauty of a lifetime. Our own lifetime.

I left Malaysia with a heavy heart, a hidden-ly sad one. Because he left me.. and then I reached Thailand. I shopped till I dropped with my eyes, absorbing all the colours, carvings, drawings everywhere! and a lil of Nickhuns* too along the road. omoni~ I feel sleepy all of a sudden,bloggie dear~ I guess it's just time for bed now! XD it is 3.1.1 am adi now XD

Shall sleep,if not cannot wake up,Yiin will "kiLL" me! XD aHAhaha nIgHT, update yOu again tomorrow,or the day after tomorrow kay? ^.^

Promise~ ^.^

GoODNIGHT..

*Nickhun- A Thai-Korean Idol from the band 2pm whose ads are everywhere in Thai~

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2009-11-16T22:29:00.002+08:00

dear blogGie diary,

I dOn't understand how guys can think of us,girls being so complicated when they are so unpredictable themselves~ do yOu know why? XD

and some are just so "eWwW-y" in the things they do. They like you and in a months time,they're loving your friend XD wth,you know XD thank gOodness, I have nothing in the world to do with such a guy,if not I'd die of non-logicness of the heart,you know~ ^.^

BuT, on the other hand,

in a more pleasant note, there are these guys who has all the traits of sweetness in them. With their small gestures, tickling your arm as they sit next to you, or just simply being encouraging plus supportive when no one else believes in you. These guys are dangerous,though.. Dangerous for the heart, because when suddenly they realize that they have to choose in between you and their career, considering that both of you are still young anyway.. They'll just runaway~

Just like that. XD

Complicated~ That's why, I shall just improve my own personal growth, develop my own character and attitude before I start to care for any of them again. I think that's a good idea, if nOt, it'll just drive him and Me craZy, with us being so playful still~ ^.^

That's it,I'm going to start to pack again now~ For Indon toMorrow~ =D I'm thiNking of pretTy shorts and liGht-coLoured tOps for the eXtremely hOt and raiNlesss weather there.

AnyOng,bloGgie~ ^.^

- You've forgotten how we used to play,
When you used to whisper to me when I study,
That you love me,
That you miss me because the books are eating up my time.

And somehow,
I've forgotten too,
How much I liked to be in your arms,
To have your kisses instead of my breakfast.

Don't you miss me?
Never thought of listening to my voice again?
Are you sure............
well,I don't believe you~ =P
you and your tricks again that you don't love me.

It's all a game isn't it,huh? XD
How many times her heart can be broken and healed game!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEe~~ -

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2009-11-12T17:07:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie Diary,

STella got into a car accident today~ (>.<) and it sucks,cause I don't feel the slightest remorse or guilt. Instead I'm even mOre eager for my next drive~ XD ahAHA aNyway,STella's gOing to swim at least 2 times a week now,since she's fiNally mastEred the BreaStroke & FreeStyle afTer 18 years of livIng and dreaMing that I can invaDe the watErs one day~ =D

hihih.. New MotivatIons to be a bEtter persOn,cOmes a personaL confidence and kai kaI mOre with my friends,becAuse they aRe worth it! =D I love them so muChie~

aH and afTer my Thailand triP,I am even mOre readY To live this life. Even aftEr he's left,he robbed this pOrtion of meat from my heaRt,and now.. I can feel a guSh of hOllowness thRough it,bUt..

SURPRISE! STella's patching it all up wiTh lots of HAPpY MEmoRies wiTh

1.suPer shoPping @ Thailand

2.waVing like a Thai princeSs whiLe tOuring Ayutthaya on an elephant

3.LovIng lOve sOngs as she tOurs arOund the Thai road

4.bloGging oNce again to the wIde world, writIng her diary and uPdating her diarY for her fuTure Pierre XD <--(My imaGinary name for my imaGinary fuTure husbanD teeehIhIhiH~XD)

5.ReadIng cOoking bOoks anD dOing her hOmework,oNce again =P

6.VisiTing friends for breakfaSt, bruNch,dinner or yaM cha~

7.RoUtine usage of supER-wOnderfuL-smelLing body buTters aNd LaneiGe-Ing~ ^.^

8.SpreaDing of hugs arOund the hOuse, fOr my 3 liL muNchKins =P

9.WaviNg my haIr and smelling realLy sweet befOre I slEep unDer my soft and waRm and coTTony blaNkie wiTh the air-cOnd blaSting! =D

that's hOw yOu get over a broKen-heart,blogGie diaRy~ ^.^

and I'm lOving it,as I have mOre patieNce nOw, and Now I do know for sure that no matter what happens, nO matter hOw baD thIngs go, even when it feels like there is no tuRning baCk or the best solution is to press OFF from this life.

Hold.... and take a deep breathe

because this too will pass..........................

nothing lasts and do do do please don't worry.. because time heals everything ^.^

love,

cuTest STella in No.47 ^.^

-i gave you my heart and you trod it again and again,

but you and I together,

it just feels alright.

even so you left and ran,

with me silly enough to think that you'd love me still,

now it's time for me to stop.

Forget about my first love,

and all the times you cared and loved me,

cause it ain't matter anymore,

this heart's not the one you know anymore.

you said that no matter what you'll be here,

no matter what happens i'll still be the one,

no matter what the world says your heart will still be mine,

but I know better now,

your words are just as empty as the wind in autumn.

don't love,they say

but I broke the rule and gave you my all,

i wasn't afraid of pain or tears,

as long as I love you,I know they don't matter.

cause i love you more than any heartaches can destroy,

but you think you know better,

breaking my heart and just running away,

again and again.

though it's okay, because you did make me stronger,

crushing me again and again,

giving me the chance to rise every morning,

fighting all the tears and thoughts of you.

for all these, I thank you,mr T{edd}Y-

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2009-10-18T19:06:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie diaRy!

Guess what! =D I got my first pay from my part time jOb a few mOnths ago.. I know I know.. I'm so slacking behind in this bloGging world,bUt aNyway,I just wanna share the jOy with you~~~~~

is that so wrong? =(

aNywAy!! Here it is! =D

A whOle RM129!
=D
SeXaYy! XD
afTer 50 hours of OT,mind you~

Love,
STella-shi~ ^.^

~:-19-:~

2009-09-23T23:38:00.003+08:00

LooK At Me! ^.^

I'm the giRl who haS so muCh to saY,bUt sadly..

I can't find the words to draw my story for yOu,bloGgie~

la la la~ La LA lA~

ButteRFly~

sOmeone said that I'm "exuberaNtly chiLdish", whiCh he likes, bUt he did waRn me that its a, "loVe or HAte" kiNda thiNg. THoUGH my chiLdish miNd telLs me that I hate that idea to be poSed on myself,bUt I have to admit,it is true~

gosh,I hate accepting trUe negatiVe faCts abOut myself!

=) piSh piSh.. btw, there is a cute bOy whOm I just met~ ^.^

whO wants to know who is he? =P

ahAHahA ^.^

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2009-08-06T14:04:00.010+08:00

DeaR bloggie diary,

I'm starting to hate making points. Trying to make a difference,trying to be different. I just try too hard, that it gets very tiring. ouhh.. I'm slowly changing my habit now,from typing big and small.. it's a lil hard,but well, every changes takes time to sink in right?

pst. anyway, what I meant is.... do you know how long did it take for me to convince myself to type out this entry? XD imagine. from 8am to.. now.. 8.19pm. 12 hours and 19 minutes just to convince myself,if i wanna share what i think so much, for goodness sake,

just BLOG it!

ouuuuuh~

this is distressing.

~~~~ believe me,blogGie dear,I wish to be those smart writers too who have things to say all the time and even if they have writers blog,that's not so bad yet~ they should try being STella. I have not only writers block, i also have physical-determination block,{e.g. just to get myself out of bed and sit myself comfortably and start with my first word.}.

Princess Lemon says that it's just pure laziness. figures~

{look what I found,bloGgie =D}

Laziness : A chronic illness where victims lack the power to do anything requiring effort. The entire population suffers from this diseas. There is no known cure.

-UrbanDictionary.com-

I like how they make us laze-ions seems so victimized. XD

Back to my main objective of writing to you today,blogGie dear.As you know,or maybe you don't =P STella's currently under a no-pay basis training @ Equatorial Hotel.

Here's a picture of sOme my colleagues: ^.^

{from top left: Maria-Ririe-Dita-STella-Vincent-Ardy-Dimitri}

All of them are from a Hospitality School in Bandung. Not all are training at the kicthen,some are at the front office or other departments in the hotels. ^.^

and guess what we had for one of the Beer Event the other week~ XD We had..

{-STELLA ARTOIS-}

ahAHa That's a lil peek-preview of what we do at the hotel kitchen. On Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays however, we have classes. 1 hour classes of every other department in the hotel so that we are more knowledgeable about the whole system of the hotel ^.^ I somehow like the Sales and Marketing Department lots,it was easy to understand their concept,compared to other departments.

There was a topic from the class which made a lil mark on me. It goes something like,

"A good salesman need not lie. They under-promise and OvEr-deliver,while bad salesman plainly over-promise and under-deliver"

I told Princess Lemon abOut it and she said that it's from a book by Robin Sharma,

"The Monk who Sold His Ferrari"

bet you've heard about this book before,ei bloGgie dear? ^.^

Grab a cOpy tOday! I did~ =D

Another thing which I have to confess to you,bloGgie diary.. is how.. TOUGH it is in the working world! XD OmO~~ I was always positive about it, every day is a wOnderful day to begin work and time passes so fast when I'm in the kitchen because I have so MuCh fuN preparing,cooking, even washing up.

But in this new kitchen,where everyone expects more of me already,no more pampering and kind treatments,-though I am just a trainee- -cause they're all stressed up- I don't feel the same thrill anymore.

I was afraid to make mistakes when I was given the responsibility to cook something all on my own. I was extra cautious of my movements,as if I'm being eyed. I try to be quicker quicker and quicker till I forgotten of everything else. I get so nervously doubtful when asked for my opinion of the tastes.

In truth, I realised,I am finally actually, facing stress at work~ XD and it was only my 3rd day. Ottoke?{What do I do?} *looks up at the iMaginary sUn and squiNt my eyes,wiShing for enlightenment* ~.~

So I decided, -STella doesn't get stressed, it just so out of place- I am going to be a GOOD, WonDerful, no...... a FaNtaBulOuS CuTe ChEF one day! =D Always MoTiVATED and EndurIng aLl the Heat and PresSure,bad mOUth of others ^.^

I am not talented,buT I am someone whO has philosphy{which will bring me far,hopefully since the trend now is that success requires more than hardwork,right? XD}... wait,do I? XD ahAHAHA I hOpe so~ ^.^

Through this work too,I've learned how lucky I am to still be able to stay at home,with my family. A steady roof over my head, not needing me to change my own light bulbs, not needing me to buy my own groceries, not needing me to pay my own rents. At least not yet~ I am veRy luCky to have my room, my bed, my soft and puffy-ly huGgable blankie to go back to after a tiring day out. Winter-cOoling air-cond to protect me from breaking any sweat.

They are strong,my colleagues that is. They must be. I know a girl whose here alone and it is really lonely sometimes, she said because she has no one to talk to at her hostel. She sings when she cooks, she sings when she sings when she showers, she sings almost as soon as she's home. I told her, well, she can be a Macau Idol as soon as she's back there then,yea? =D ahhAHA ^.^

Maybe I should sleep over at her place for a few nights~ ^.^ It is nearer to work and dad did say that I can,if I take care of myself ^.^

So there it is,bloggie~ It's really not easy in the working world. Even I as a trainee who doesn't get paid feels it,imagine all the other people whose living depends on their pay. If they don't perform at work,they'll risk getting fired. They have much less freedom than I do too~ like on leaves,for example.. If you work an extra 8 hours of OverTime,then oNly you get an extra day off. Other than that, 6 days of work,then only you get a day off.

I skip a lil here and there,they give me a lil more freedom for my leaves laer,i admit~ ^.^ because I'm a trainee mer =P ahAHA nevertheless,I've to work hard too,to be a good worker..

Chef Jorchen said that, "If you do good,I will write you a letter" ^.^

A letter from Chef Jorchen = A letter from one of the OnLy 2 MASTER CHEFS in Asia! I'll do anything for it!! =D

STella say already then have to perform one,okay? ^.^

*pat pat STella's head softly* ^.^

alRight,tiMe to go rest now already~ Fever kids needs more sleep. ja-neh.. ^.^

before that, lil more entertainment for the heart~<3

It writes: With Compliment from Shodob Ali (BDH16) to TCHT LiBRARY.

I found this kindly-donated book at Taylor's PJ Campus library. Mind you,this book costs about RM500++ in the market you know~ XD Shodob Ali,I hope you've become a veRy successful person~ ^.^

and.. the Musical Diary @ KLCC's Philharmonic Orchestra~

I checked it out, after work one day.. They had pictures of what the events KL's Orchestra had to spread the language of music. It is really beautiful.. ^.^ you have to see it,bloGgie dear~

{the guest book which is signed by visitors all around the world..}

{the diary alley}

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2009-07-07T16:57:00.003+08:00

Dear bloGgie diaRy,

I am currently in cOllege now aNd.. I just feel so omg! XD aHAHA AcTually,i dOn't reaLLy feel that way =P

I've officialLy suBmitted my coLlege stOpping letter to the caMpus yesterday and seEing all my senIors from the oTher batCh cOme back from their iNdustrial traiNing,makes me waNna stay here and leaRn mOre firSt,o bloGgie dear.. if oNly..

hahah aNd tOday, I came to coLlege to treat my felLow claSsmates for lunCh at the Santa Ines restaurant wiTh my stuDent vOucher! XD AnD afTer that, we weNt to watCh Forrest Gump in the liBrary's AV room ^.^ bUt afTer 2 out of the 4 CD's we had to leave for class alReady laer XD

aHAHA CAn YoU belieVe it?!?! XD STella's gOing for class again! XD aHAHA You must be preTty cOnfused now,o bloGgie dear.. wiTh questiOns like,

"ei! i thought she just said that she stopped from coLlege already?"

Yes,I did.. bUt.. since I have a few hOurs to kiLl befOre draMa praCtise,why not make uSe of it by gOing for a class,no? ^.^ and beCause this is my ex class's fiRst Geography class for the term, everyone's a newbIe =P ahaha aNd I was sO eXcited to tRy out the Geo class,whiCh the seniOrs always cOmplain for it's boRing-ness XD Pn. Lim thOught me well in Geo, in Form3, it was iNterestiNg and FuN! AnD i even gOt an "A" for it! =D yiPpEee~~

AND SO there I was eaGer to staRt the class! =D

and after 20mins~~

"why not teacher one?"

daNg daNg taNg! XD

"NO CLASS FOR TODAY!"

aiyooooooooooo ^o^ oooooooo!

so muCh for beiNg eSpeCially eaGer and replYing to my classmaTes, "Ei yOu're baCk!"-ness,o XD aHAHAH WEEE~~

SO now here I am back at the liBrary,bOred and nOthing to do,whIle the caMpus haven't terminate my stuDent account yet,I still can cOme into the liBrary! XD

hehehe XD

aNyway, i wonder bloGgie diaRy how peOple can lead seCret lives oNe,o? ^.^

huRrrmMm.. Like in DesperaTe Housewives, where they can juSt siMply hide a muder from the whOle neiGhbourhood One,o! aNd.... even when they have murdered their graNdpapa example, they caN actually live nOrmally and preteNd that it neVer hapPened before..

until of course..

bit by bIt their seCrets aRe reveaLed! XD aHHAH Ouh.. Okay,maYbe in real it's nOt that super-draMa! bUt..

do ever really kNow sOmeone?

oR what they Do Or THiNK at times?

hmmm.. I've been waRned of this facade whiCh peOple pUt up to hiDe whO they reaLLy are, beCause they feel that other peOple will sOmehow lOok down on them maybe? Or an isOlation from the soCiety,now that would be bad.

bUt i guess that's what makes uS all human,ei.. always liVing in fear what oThers miGht thiNk XD wEeeE~~ ^.^

BuT then again,

how maNy times have we heard ourselves thiNking,

"who caRes what they say? I am whO I am."

XD aHAHHA aNd then 10mins laTer..

"why do they have to think like that laer?"

aHAHAHA

OR MAyBE IT'S JUsT ME~! XD

ALL that is gOing to chaNge,bloGgie dear! =D

STella wiLl be mOre cOnfident and hapPy wiTh herself,ya! =D AhAhAah step by step,I wilL rISE..

"RiSe--

rIsE!--

RISE---!"

{i think i sound like a tribal woman calling out for her confidence from the universe or something like that =P}

Okay, I'm hUngry alreaDy laer bloGgie! XD calL Lau wake uP and acCompaNy me eat fiRst already laer! =D

bYe bYe bloGgie ^.^

aiyak! He fall asleep again adi! >.<

~MiNi Entre~SS

2009-07-02T03:15:00.005+08:00

Dear bloGgie diaRy,

I wanna IntroduCe you to sOmeone.. ^.^

Meet..

~=:-..Suzanne Goin..-:=~

She was the oNe who had weNt knOcking at the back doOr of the legenDary restaurant, Ma Maison, in California when she was oNly a hiGh school senior, to ask for a chance to intern there. She was acCepted and from then,she had embarked on her journey tOwards the perfeCtion of cuisines. Owh.. bloGgie dear,I absOlutely adore her! =D

She is aFter alL,the veRy FirSt chef whO had spaRked my paSsion in the ArT of Food! =D I watched her oNce in Chef's Story aNd I had never fOrgotten abOut her,even afTer 6 months.. =D I'll work haRd and eaRn my chanCe to meet her sOme dAy!

I shalL! ^.^

for more details,do cheCk oUt this paGe~

http://www.chefsstory.com/thechefs_suzannegoin.html

^.^

Suzanne aNd huBby, Chef David Lentz,

her 2 twiNs

aNd alSo dogGy,Peg XD

AH! aNd for a liL more iNspiratIon ^.^

Finally, what advice would you give to any aspiring chef?

Jacques Torres:

{Award wiNning PastRy chef/ ChOcolateur ^.^ He cOoks for the kings, celebriTies aNd many many worldly iCons ^.^ He's realLy suPeR gOod at Pastry! ^.^ click on his name to proceed to his oNline chOcolate shOp! =D}

Never work in a place where people don't use the best ingredients. Always work with a good chef, someone who can give you direction, inspiration and can set an example. You need to work with a leader -- a person who will teach you how. The restaurant has to use good ingredients. You can become a good chef if you work in a place that provides you with excellent ingredients and good equipment. Don't settle for what you think is not the best place.

Cooking is aFter alL a wOrk of peRfectIng aNd setting the standards,o bloGgie dear ^.^

ah.. aNd anOther~~

AB: What tips would you offer young chefs just getting started?

David Lentz:

Work your ass off.

Read cookbooks

and remember, it’s harder at the top.

Also, learn to multi-task.

Experiment with different food.

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2009-06-25T00:15:00.003+08:00

Dear bloggie diary,

I'm gay..

aHAAHHAHAHAhahah =D I REALlY Am tOnigHt,I don'T KNow why!? XD

maYbe beCause Ty Doctor speNds tiMe wiTh me mOre now ^.^ thOugh I will tRy to nOt bother him toO muCh,because it miGht affect hiS studies again,bUt I am realLy gRAtefuL that he waNts to meluaNgkan masa wiTh me toO ^.^ Just as muCh as I do I dO want to,wiTh hiM! XD aAHAHA

P.S. Lee Hom is nOt gay gAy,ya bloGgie dear! =D don't liSten to Roger-O! He's juSt jealous that Lee Hom get the hOt chiCks =P XD bUt even if hE is.. I stilL liKe/adMire his siNging skiLls lOts! ^.^

ah.. a liL aMUsement for zEe eyes nOw~~

;P i want KFC's friEd ChiCken!

~ThaNk yOu for letting my bOdy eMit enough warmth to waRm us uP at niGht! ^.^~

=+:9:+=

2009-06-22T00:24:00.001+08:00

Dear bloGGie diary,

HE's taLkiNG to me again! =P

LOVE,

YoUr sweETEsT MoST HAppieST STella! =D

*giGgles giGgles gIggLES GIggLES WIth HiGH-NeSs*

I am cOntented! My wiSh's fullfiLled,for nOw =P XD

-Thank You for alLowing me to feEl this jOy in my heArt!-

^.^

=+:8:+=

2009-06-20T23:57:00.006+08:00

Dear bloGGie diary,i feel like hearing my friend singing suddenly... =/ uh-huh-huh-huuu...

but he went back hometown. ehhhh.. *bleh* not fun laer,he! =P siNg until so niCe,then suDdenly need to go back hOmetown! XD I'm left with Lee Hom for now,i guess..

HihiHihih.. But BuT,I uploaded MUSIC to my BB XD ahAHAHhahaHA So HAppy! cause if nOt, OMG! there's nothiNg to do aNymore... =::::( since THE "HE" doesn't even wanna message me anymore.. =/ *bleh* i feel all sad when I thiNk about it.. but Oh-well.... I'll just have to wait..

Owh .. and guEss what! ^.^ I met up with My PrinCesS LeMon,Kar Yan aNd Khaw yEe Too tOday! ^.^ so lOng didn't see them adi,aNd they stiLl lOok so preTty and handsome,o ^.^ waHh wahH wahh! ^.^ so envIous XD

whereas...

Me..

getting fatTer and chuBbier

and so So sO so!!!!

MUCH CUTER!!

XD AhAhahahahAHhaA *dIes of syIok-senDiRi-neSs* XD

aHAHAhahahAHaHA..HA...ha..ha.... X)

*awakens from deAth,fuLly fuRbished(whatever that may mean XD)* =D

GooD MoRniNg,MALAYSIA! =D

ahAHAhahAH Okay laer,i thiNK i'm sleepy already.. XD got Taylor's PJ Campus Open Day tomorrow,ya! =D anYone got nOthing to do,dO cOme and viSit and have sOme fRee Macaroons! =D It's 100% YuMMY! =D

gOodniGhT,dearest bloGgies~~~~ ^.^

-THANK YOU,for giving me opportunities in life to be a better person!-

I LOVE YOU LIFE!

MARRY MEEEEE~~!! XD

{though i doubt you can,since you're so busy with everyone's life and alL.. bUt yOu can lie to me and marRy me =P I'll pretend that I don't know of all yOur lies.. }

a piCture of wisDom #1

~tumble and ponder,thou shall~

ow-man! the words kecil sangat! XD even the ants on my laptop also can't read laer! XD weLl.. dearEst bloggies.. it actualLy says...

~If you stumble,make it part of your dance~

^.^

I wiLl,I wiLl! =D tiLl in the end, even the audience wiLl give a stanDing ovation for such a briLLiant played, play ^.^

=+:7:+=

2009-06-18T10:41:00.003+08:00

Dear bloGGie diary,

STella's sick adi now,o..

=( *sigh* )=

No fever or anything, just dry cough and really stucked running nose,o bloGgie dear.

HmMMm.. well, mOving on with today's let-my-Heart-oUt post,

i might have realised something about myself.

I always try to make a point.

To make a difference.

To make a stand for my own thoughts and opinions.

yet..

I'm scared of rejection too, and of conflicts.

which is really not very nice,when I try to get a message through to someone.. it gets confusing and in the end,I'll just give in.

I think i shOuldn't try too hard to make a point anymore, i'll just learn how to keep it to myself,because at the end of the day,you wouldn't wanna arGue,you just wanna have a mutual understanding. right,bloGgie diary? ^.^

oWh.. and yOu know yOu know! I went for my VERy fiRsT SUCCESSFUL YaM-cHa 2 nights ago! XD I'm pretTy proud of that =P I went with Olivia and Roger,who drove us alL safely there and back toO ^.^ I had IndoMee{bUt not the Ori oNe laer,juSt the Malaysian Imitation oNe,o XD} aNd a StrawberRy Lassi,whIch I think they just added LOTS of SuGar,waTer and strawberry extract or some kind of chemICal which tastes like strawberry.

BuT i had fun,listeNing to "stories" from these 2 ^.^Updating faCts about our friends ^.^ weee~~ thOugh I find certain things a lIl hard to understand,it was okay because we all need to grow up One day and I guess this's what we have to go thrOugh,o..ye? ^.^

ahHAAH AnD GuEss what bloGgie! ^.^ I went to wOrk yesterday.. at Chinoz again! ^.^ aNd alL of them were so hYper on that day =D it's nIce to work with them again aFter 3 months.. aNd there were new chefs tOo and there were those who left tOo.. There is one dude,Chef Yan,whose at the Jap station one, he's realLy nice,bUt realLy quiet tOo,o XD aNd there is One Chef Irma, whose at the Pastry section ^.^ She's a student of Chef Fadzly and Chef Massyittah who used to teach in FIM(Food Institute of Malaysia),bUt both of them are teaching at Taylor's already,o ^.^

ahh! aNd the new tall chef! He's actually a senior in Taylor's.. I saw him before last year during the CLIOD(College Life in One Day) program at Taylor's one.. He was the dude who does the flarIng at the rooftop oNe,o XD aHAHA He was surprised that I still remmeber hIm.. bUt what to do.. I'm gOod with faces bUt not with names,o XD His name is Ariff,btw ^.^ he's dOing his industrIal traiNing now at Chinoz,o.. cause it's oNly 10mins from his house ^.^ How envIous! XD I have to take 2 hours of traIn everyday if I go work there..

sO that's abOut all then for now,bloGgie dear.. I hope thing will get betTer soon for me.. There is a change of plans now.. UK,or maYbe US?

JrEnG JREnG JrENG! XD *suspense*

I'll update yOu when I come to a decision adi first laer,kay bloGgie dear ^.^ to avOid further ConfusiOn mer.. XD

see yOu! ^.^

-Thank You for making me stIll aBle to sMell that wOnderfuLly glaZed broNz-y roAsted chiCken thrOugh my muCus-y nOse! ^.^-

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2009-06-09T20:40:00.006+08:00

Dear bloGgie diaRy,

Do yOu know!! Chef jeWels-spaRkling-in-the-blUe-seA eyes, has a gf!! XD aNd guess what!! XD ahH! I shouldn't tell yOu any mOre,in case he found this post abOut him =P ahAHHAa bUt bUt yOu know,he has a gf aNd it'll be our liL mission to find out who she is,ye? =P she's not very faR from us... zeng zeng ZeNg! XD

bUt that's not the hiGhlight for tOday ^.^ there is mOre! for the next few days,yOu've to endure witH me a lil,ya.. there will be lOts of bYe byEs as it iS afTer alL my LAST weEk in Taylor's XD aHAhah Teruknya,this girl.. stuDy oNe term then stOp adi =P

it's just that STella has biGger plans alreaDy,so do nOt fret liL bloGgies =D She wiLl surviVe wiTh a prOper educatIon.. neXt year XD ahAHAHAH

And SO toDay is the last day of FnB-practical class where we were to have an assessment aNd.. as muCh as I was afraid of tOday's class cause i lost my bOok XD It was a praCtical assessment,wiThout writting test! XD

*breathe in the air of relief* fuuuhhh! XD

thank gOodness,Yo! =D

I vOluntereed to be the server tOday,since it is my laSt class wiTh Mr.Vinesh.. ^.^ i'd like to bE a waiter,cause it miGht be my last time =P My customer toDay was the ever so helpful Mr. Heng Kit whO had a realLy handsome hairstyLe done tOday ^.^

Had sOme miStakes here aNd there bUt Mr.Vinesh said that I just need to practise.. I'm alright ^.^ weEee~~ that's not such a baD comment ^.^ Oh.. aNd he gave me the Training Director for Sheraton Imperial, Mr.Azlin's number so that i can talk to him about my career oPpportunities with them ^.^ bUt he's a busy busy man.. so he gave me also.. Chef Rajesh, Imperial's Sous Chef's nuMber tOo if I can't reach Mr Azlin ^.^

I'll misS Mr.Vinesh's class.. the tImes we brewed coFfee every mOrning aFter mise-en-place aNd everytIme we carried tOo maNy plates and cutleries arOund the restaurant XD AHaha He was always so generOus with HIS Knowledge ^.^

i REMEMber this stOry he tOld us abOut his experience in Bangkok where they had Massage breaks for their meetings,where each member will be assiGned a masseur for a short massage before continuing with the meetiNg! =D HOW cOol is that!! XD

and thEre was oNe where they has a "Chocolate" break,where everYthIng they serve are chOcolates.. scUlptures aNd platIngs alL,fulL of coLourful and aLl kiNd of chOcolates! =D ahAHA Cat wiLl go craZy in there! XD

In the end,we parTed and i wishes him, to get weLl soon from his recent leg operation(whiCh he gOt from his Mountain biKing adVentureXD) ahAHA eXtreme hOr my lecTURER! XD

OH,and I manaGed to fOld him a miNi rOse tOo wiTh a thaNk yOu nOte inside ^.^ I hOpe he liKes it,thOugh it may be veRy small..it's from the heart..STella's heaRt somemore yOu know ^.^

ahAHAHA AnD afTer that we ruShed to change and gOt gOing to the Sime Darby ConventiOn Centre where we had a bufFet lunCh and heLped oUt for the "Chef's Get Together" Hi-T,o ^.^ We did aDministratioN aNd it was bad.. it was real bad.. =/

The estimated number of pax are suppOsed to reach up to 300-400 bUt less than a 100 came,I think. oh-my-my.. well,nOw we knOw,the neXt event wiLl have to be betTer oNe,kay! ^.^ wiTh mOre peOple able to attend aNd mOre people to register to be Members ^.^ yipPeEe~~

one of the iNtereSting peOple we met tOday was the yOung Mr. Faissal Abdel Khaleck ^.^ It says here in his card,

Regional Executive Chef Chain

XD dunno what it means though... ahAHAH do yOu,bloGgie?

welL, from what he tells uS,he works,eXperimentinG and creAting the new flavours/dreSSings for KFC, Pizza Hut.. YeS! He's the neW Koloned Faissal aNd the aRtist behind all the flavOURS we have on oUr piZza Hut pizZas ^.^

He gets to travEl the glObe alL year rOund and he was jusT in Malaysia for 10 days XD ahAHAH He's oNly 35 and he's earNing more than 25K a mOnth! XD wOooT WOoot! XD

hOw niCe,riGht? =D to get to travEl and not be attached to anYthing~~

He'll be viSiting Taylor's arOund August maYBe.. so liL Taylor's Chef,do be alert to when he's cOming to DEMO,ya! =D It'll be a oNce-in-a-lifetiMe kinda thiNg,yOu know =D ahHAHA even I stiLl wanna gO baCk and attend that DEMO,man! =D ahAHAH

ANd I shaLL! XD

then afTer that,I just gOt home aNd had dinner,o ^.^ I had rice and LadYfIngers and squids oNly XD I noTiced that I've been havIng lOts of laDyfingers lately,o.. XD I wonder why..

I used to nOt even tOuch it at alL!

OH-WELL.. ^.^

JuSt eat what there is aNd live thRough.

I better go shOwer adi then ^.^ I feel so gOod in my 2%-more-to-beiNg-clean-roOm,o bloGgie dearEst! =D do yOu know lOng it tOok to clean it to this 2%-mOre state? 3 daYs,yOu know! XD so can yOu imagIne how meSSy it WAS! TERrIBLE.... just terRible XD

ahHAHA SEE You then,bloGgie! ^.^

ouh,thaNk yOu for makIng me strong to walk on these 2 legs ^.^

-everything was a lie-

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2009-06-09T01:20:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie diaRy,

I lOst my FnB text bOok and guEss WHAT!!!! XD

ASSESSMENT DAY'S ... TOMRROW!! XD

ahAHAHAHHAHAHAHAahAH I'm the luCkiest persOn on earth,aren't? XD ahHAHAH God blEss me,wiTh all THE LUcK so that I can see ivan tOmorRow mOrning and sabO his bOok befOre class starts! =D

I am heArt *crack*

^.^~oops..

.maybe i shouldn't have been like that.

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2009-05-20T15:30:00.002+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

i MISS..

sMilling to myself when I see his iNcOming meSsages laer..

Otoke?

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2009-05-20T00:28:00.004+08:00

Dear bloGgie DiaRy,

Okay,schoOl tOday! ^.^ I had a bOring FnB practical again. I like Mr.Vinesh bUt it's just the suBject class whiCh I don't like,o. Because mostly it's 4 hours aNd it's lots of pOlishing, prim and proper tYpe.. Lots of restrictions and rules. You know hOw muCh STella hate ruLes and constriCting perimeters,o. bUT it goT fuN-Er when he tauGht us the Micros system ^.^

Which whiCh, hubBy.. they also uSe in REAL restaurants, to key in all your ordErs and FiRE(to calL out the dishes to the chefs so they can start cOoking the course XD) the diShes. FIRE! FIRE! FIREFIREFIREFIREFIRE!! XD ahAHAha FIRE! I love it laer,bloGgie XD

From this paRt, I found out why caShier's are so buSy even thOugh sometimes there isn't many people in the restaurant oNe,o XD

It is eally so veRy heCtic for the cashier and server people,man ^.^

I should thank them for their hardwork the next time i go to a restaurant with a cashier whose using the Micros system,o XD

aNd I am happy by the end of the class,because I set up my table coRrectly and my ceNtrepiece for tOday was pretty aNd shIny,o ^.^ ahAhaA plUS Plus, Mr. Vinesh said that he can help me get a job in Sheraton Imperial if I want after this 1st term ^.^ wEeeE~~

afTer that we had a Computer class which is as usual unproductive but very informative ^.^ We learned how to use Windows FrontPage today.. That was a lil challenging bUt after 10mins, can use adi laer =D weee~~ XD hahaha iT was fUn,untIl I hit an erRor page XD It was frustratingly fUn,then XD ahaha..

Then,I went to library and toOk a short nap there ^.^ and when I woke up,I saw Ben starIng at me,eager to get out adi and dressed-readily for our kitchen work again XD i was so shOcked! I asked him why was he just starIng at me and didn't wake me up when it's time adi? XD He said that he was too scared to wake me up bUt he didn't dare to leave me sleeping alOne there XD ahAHA siLly Ben.. XD

We went to Commi for our separate seniors at 5 and we ended at about 8.20 today ^.^ My senior today is Wong Lee Lung from Sarawak aNd no wOnder I heard pretTy muCh cOmpliments for him oNe,o. He's a preTty gOod oNe,o ^.^ His laMb stew wasn't tOo salTy aNd the meat was sO tender ^.^ He did a suGar aRt thiNgy tOo,o whiCh Chef Rex said, "So CoOl!" XD ahaha.. ^.^ aNd he was so kiNd that when I asked whether he can coOk me an Omelette beCause I realLy feel like eatIng it,o XD He aCtually did(I pre-Preapared the thiNgs, diCed the shallots and the muShrOoms adi,okay =P) a RealLy yuMmy oNe whiCh tastes niCe with the laMb stew toO =D ahahah

TheN afTer that, I just went hOme adi lor ^.^ aNd guess what, I almost triPped down the staIrcase,o bloGgie dear ^.^ My aNkle hurts just now,bUt it's alright now ^.^ I can't feel the pain anymore, when my heart's hurting so much..

TomoRrow's the daY for the Malaysian Chef Association anNual mEeting at Reanaissance Hotel,o ^.^ whiCh abOut 40 of us Taylor's lIl chefs are attending to register as nEw members,o XD ahAHA cuTE,right? =P OuR FirSt BaTch,tRiP,O! XD Eigen,whose doIng his IndustrIal traIning's alSo cOming laer XD He's escaping wOrk earlier,apparently.. Yea laer, for the sake of the fiRst cOllege TrIP mer =P XD ahahha

Okay laer. I better go shower adi,o ya bloGgie.. and maybe do some cleaning first for my room ^.^ it's so messy.. so so messy..

SORRy a lIl glumMy tOday,ya bloGgie dear.. Cause I feel like my heart -tear-ing bit by bit,o.. wiTh so much blooooood..

*sigh* gOodnight,bloGgie dear ^.^

~thank yOu for letting my heart puMp blOod so efFectively,o~

^.^

..I started becoming a liar without you,xl..

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2009-05-18T23:53:00.004+08:00

Dear bloGgie diary,

I had class tOday at 11... bUt I need to go to schoOl at 6.30 o XD aAHAHah so sleepy,man XD bUt I have to laer because Aunt Josephine can onLy fetch me at that time mer ^.^ Oh-well, gOt meetiNg at 9 also laer ^.^ ahAHHA

So I went to the library and watched the video Eric made again.. many many times,o.. His singing is really gOod mer ^.^ Then I just went back to the Perlis conference roOm again aNd continued my nOtes from yesTerday,o.. ^.^

UntIl.. the reSt caMe,and we started our projeCt and it was so the lagGing,o XD Because.... We dOn't have enough cardboards to make the restauraNt ShIp,o XD owh-man.. We did somethiNg, at least, in the afternOoN,o.. We made a SeA! =D ahhha aNd we have our cliFf already XD PlUS plus!! XD The bOne-struCture for Our SHIP already,o =D aAAHAH

Our RestauRant, De Navire

miGht just be abLe to be oPened by the 28th,o =D Ahahahah

Well, today, I got Butchery class,o.. We had it with Chef Norrizan instead Chef Sharizan today, because Chef Sharizan said that we're SmELLy,o XD When actually,he was just assiGned to teach another class which hapPens to be gOvernment-fuNded or something like that oNe,o ^.^

We watched as Chef Norrizan showed us the different parts of the bEef,

1. Tender meat

-sirloin,tenderloin

2. Less tender meat

-rump,rib-eye, t-bone

(though I thought rump was a tender meat.. bUt well, I shall further question it,in the next class,o)

3. Tough meat

-topside,shank

Along with all these, she showed us how to cut it and portion it into presentable parts too ^.^ No cutting beef for us bUt she did give us each a slice of the tenderloin, which costs RM46/kg XD WoOo! XD and the BeST of all,she allowed us to coOk it hOwever we want to,o bUt only with simple seasonings: salt,pepper,thyme,corriander.

I tried to experiment with what the chef from the KLCC Convention Centre, Chef Richmond did last last month for the presentation in Taylor's with the rump. i remembered that he said,

"Respect the herbs and appreciate it's natural properties"

don't always think about cooking,grilling the herbs together with the meat,o.. XD

So I did tRy,I seared my slice of tenderloin and when it's light brown-ish, I took it off to another plate and season it with salt and pepper and the thyme. But I felt that it wasn't coOked yet inside.. seriously,it's too tender to be felt as cOoked. So I seared it again...(there gOes my attempt to fOllow Chef Richmond's method XD) until it became bronzy brown.. I took it off and placed it on it's plate.. But!

When I tried to cut it, it was still so red and blood-ish XD wow! XD It's not even cOoked inside yet XD Chef Norrizan said to sear it again.. aNd so I did.. I seared it till it became what seems to be chocolaty brown. XD I was scared that it might've been tOo well-done till it became as dry as a stick adi laer,not like a steak anymore.

BuT Chef Ahmad said that it's a nice colour for the meat, it's okay. I was relieved XD aNd then I tried to cut it again and it's still a lil red inside and a lil blood juicing out. It looked pretty gOod actually XD Chef Norrizan said that it's MediUm-rare,o XD ahAHAHA

aNd so that became of my AccideNtal-MediUm-RaRe TeNderlOin,o huBby! XD aHAHA not bad for my first time cOoking right? ^.^ Eric and Ali and Fadzli came to tRy it and Chef Norrizan was scolding to not give them fOod but they stOle the cut slices prettY quick,o XD and Eric said that it's actualLy Okay wor.. XD Just a liL too wet,he says.. XD bUt Winnie likes the juiCy-ness like that ^.^ hihih.. so got bad and gOod also laer,hor? ^.^

ahAHAH

well, bloGgie diary, have yOu had to leave someone befOre because yOu love them and yOu know that yOu can't give them the hapPiness they should have,o? ^.^

dOn't worry, kenchaanaayo, I know I can be strong when my heart needs me tOo..

^.^

Okay laer, I better continue cleaNing my roOm again adi,o.. See yOu see YoU ToMorrow =D GoODNIgHT,bloGgie dear..

~ThaNk yOu,because I have a perfect reSpiratOry system to breathe in the sMell of YumMy TendErlOin! XD~

ANyOng~~ BloGgie dearestSssS ^.^

2009-05-17T20:18:00.002+08:00

Dear blogGie diaRy,

I am baCk XD =P

ahAhahA Did yOu miss me o? XD

You did,diDn't yOu =P

ahAHah Yea riGht!

Well, I've been on a blOg vaCation these 2 months.. ^.^ Taking a time to re-evaluate myself.. and to try to see things from different perspectives. It isn't very fruitful,bUt so far.. i have learned things, from meeting new people and experiencing new happenings.

^.^

It's all good. I may not be all that hapPy happy STella adi,o.. here that is.. because I'm telling yOu about my hearts feelings mer. If you oNly wanna see my laUghY, sMilLy side, don't read here laer... Meet me in real life or call me o ^.^ I'm good at hIding my sadness there =D

ahAHAh WEll.. How have yOu beEn since i left leh bloGgie dear? ^.^ I hope yOur life's been more smooth-gOing than mine.. ^.^ Not that mine's not smooth.. Oh,it is! XD It is tOo veRy SmOOtH until I get so scared adi o XD

I shall eXplain when I don't feel so lazy anymore.. or yOu shOuld just read on my posts and maYbe you can spot my meaning along the way? =P

alRight then.. That's enoUgh for a New IntRo,o XD Stay and read and sEe a new STella! =D hihihih.. a mOre mature one,I hope XD {a better at handling-his-heart-one-o}

~Kamsamida, because I can see wiTh my pair of eyes ^.^~

p.s. isly,ty.. ^.^

#29 DE: Renting Day-2

2009-03-15T00:51:00.001+08:00

{14.3.2009-Saturday}

Dear blogGie Diary,

This mOrning,I went for MY VeRy FirSt KiwaNis oUting,o bloGgie =) It was FuN! XD Met lOts of inTeresTing peOple from there =) BuT All of theM are eiTher from the Main caMpus or TBS,nOne of them are frOm my PJ area of the colLege XD ahaha.. so i was lOnely.. =P

nOt! XD

ahahaa Because they were allL realLy frieNdly and veRy sMiley toO =)

We went to a Rumah Warga Tua dan Kanak Kanak which in Kepong aNd there are rOughly abOut 18 chIldren there, 14 kids arOund 11-6years oLd and 4 ranging from 12-17years oLd =)

The liL oNes,sOme of theM dOesn't really understaNd what I was sayIng,though.. XD They seem so lOst XD aND I cOuldn't sTop laUghing from beiNg so lOst wiTh theM toO,o bloggie dear XD ahaHAH

I gOt to know the oLder oNes mOre and aRrr...XD One of them has a gF already oNe,yOu know XD The 14 year oLd,Dewa XD aAHAHA nauGhty naughty ar! =P XD

ahAHAH aNd bloGGie dear,I'm HapPy toO that they likEd the cUpcakes I maDe for theM laSt niGht oNe =) aahAH alThough for some,the icing shoUld be smOother bUt as of all,it was gOod =) weEeEe~~

aHAHAHah aNd the peOple whose name I still can reMemeber nOw,are:

{FrOm the Kiwanis Club =)}

Committee: Ms.President-Hui Jing

-not sure what post bUt yea XD-Claire

[she's a HAnKUk,o blogGie! =)}

-My FnB Head for the Installation Night-Tom Tung

[he's an eX SriKL seniOr whom I've never kNown XD]

Members:

-KC

[A-Levels=Psychology~she's haLf Filipino and Malaysian aNd she's ReaL sweEt,o bloggie =)]

-JC

[A-Levels=Law~She's a hUge FaN of Gordon Ramsay, Jamie Oliver, Dr.House and Mr.C XD ahAHAH She's a Real lOUD aNd reaL hYper tOo,veRbally o blogGIe XD]

-Tracy

[A-Levels=Sciences~I felt that I've seen mEt her befOe lOng lOng tiMe agO and she felt the samE About me tOo XD bUt we have No idea where we've seen eaCh other XD =P It's rather cOnfusing,yOu knOw bloGgie XD]

-Arshad

[A-Levels=Psychology~He's KC's aNd Claire's claSsmaTe plUs JC's cLose friend XD ahAHAH He's funNy,almOst like hOw Ji Ji is XD]

-Hong

[UniSA prOgram for University of South Australia~I have nOt muCh idea abOut hiM,thOugh XD bUt he's oNe of the lauGhter spreadER tOo tOday XD Very sPontaneOus tOo XD]

-Jin Yi

[Business~ahAAh This gIrl ar,what shOuld I say ar? XD She was panicking this mOrning whether or nOt she shOuld go for this oUting because she waNts to meet up with her friends later in the afternOon XD but she was Realy niCe,she went ahead with the ouTing even though she'l be late for her oUting with her friends o bloGgie dear =)]

-Jess

[UniSA~ nOt muCh abOut her tOo that I know,just that she's ReaLly faiR aNd rOsy like hOw if snow were to bluSh=)]

-Sook Kun

[nOt suRe what proGRAm alReady,o XD bUt thiS giRl's haS a realLy pretT heaRt and is RealLy gOod wiTh the kiDs =) anD she was learNIng hOw to speak Tamil frOm theM toO,whiCh got theM realLy eXcited to teaCh her,yOu see =)]

-Snow

[A-Levels=Sciences~She didN't cOme tOday,thOugh.. bUt i thiNk I will see her on the InstallatiOn niGht neXt Sat,o.. hOpefulLy =) She's frOm China,o btw blogGie,the H.JasOn Land XD =P]

-Pixie

[HankUk giRls No.2 XD AHahah She's 20years oLd and she's heRe taKing an English Course in Taylor's wiTh Halley =) She lOves Won Bin aNd Big Bang,espeCially G-DragOn,whOse my idOl tOo blogGie! XD He's oNe of the mOst CoNfIdeNt and seCure celebriTy,I've knOwn XD]

-Halley

[HanKuk giRl No.3 XD sHe's 23 yeaRs oLd aNd liVes wiTh PiXie =) She will oNly be here for the cOurse for 6 moNth and she'll be off baCk to Korea already.. ouhman =/]

From the Centre:

-Morgan Raj

[There was sO many children buT he was the elDest and the mOst mature oNe,and not stiNgy wiTh his words too =) His B'Day is on the 18th March XD saMe say as Yu Ming? XD]

-Dewa

[The sHy bOy whO hasN't sid aNythIng to me oTher than,"sMiliNg sheEpiShly" aNd a "Bye" when we weNt back XD P.S. He has a gf,whOse name is Satriapriya,i thiNk that's hOw yOu spell it,ye XD]

-Dasth

[The eXtra hYper bOy whO caN't stOp aNsweriNg for the Charades games XD]

-Kumar

[My liL bOy of the dAy XD He's so quiet,aNd sHy siTing neXt to me,I wOuld've lOoked like I bulLied hiM,you knOw XD]

-Jessica

[The baBy of the whOle Centre's faMily. She's tuRning 6 this 15th of March,bloGgie =) aNd she's realLy cUte! XD she lauGhs lOts even thoUgh she caN't speak English bUt we stiLl can coNnect,thrOugh the lanGuage of lauGhters =P XD]

ahHAhah They were alL ReaL cUtIes,o bloGgie blogGie! ^.^ ah.. I feEl goOd speNding tiMe wiTh theM when I'm feeliNg so dOwn nowadays.

I'm glaD I went tOday =)

I didn't make it for ballet tOday,bloGgie. Because....

the veRy puNctUal traiN was delayed for 1 hOur and even aFter I fell aSleep already aNd woke up,the train wasn't even there yEt and the peOple are grOwing mOre and mOre like a suPer reproducing anT Colony XD tHen yOu know what!! XD JrEnG jREg jreng.... It's gOing to be delayed for anOther 2 hours XD wth?

See ar, if I were to still go for it, I would reach the 2nd station minImUmly 45 mins laTer and it'll be 6.45p.m. alReady. -My class's at 5p.m.,o- aNd the 2nd train will take abOut30 mIns miNimumly..and to catcha caB to the Studio,abOut let's say in 20 miNs tiMe. It'll be 7.35p.m. alreaDy,o aNd anOther 55 miNs for class oNly,o wiThout even cOunting the tIme to change and tIe my hair XD ah...

KilLing me oNly laer the train XD

Mum piCked me uP aNd it raiNed so heaviLy,that I weNt to take a shOrt naP by the cOuch for half an hOur. Thn by sOme mIraCle,mum aCtualy woke me uP to go for a Mani-Pedi XD aAHAha

aND of cOurse I gOt up at the chaNce and there we weNt to Taipan at fiRt bUt the shOps were all clOsed already, so we weNt to Sunway Pyramid inStead and we did in the shOp which is in the Asian Avenue,near the Shihlin Taiwan's Street Snack stall oNe XD

WaHh,,it feels gOod =D and so veRy pampering XD bUt veRy daMpeniNg for my tuShi,oh bloGgie! XD SeriOusly,can yOu imaGine 3 hOurs of siTing dOwn.. straIght! XD

I'm tyPing wiTh my preTty naiLs aNd swoLlen heaRt now =P

aHAHAH Nat's gOing off to Singapore next Monday adi,o.She ar,so long didn' even taLk to me,suDdeNLy meSsage and say that she's leaviNg already,o XD Carmen's nOt takiNg it well,o bUt well.. we're all moVing o already,oh right? =)

*sigh*

moving on..

~안녕~

shhhh.. wei wei! ask you sOmething.. XD

2009-03-10T01:27:00.002+08:00

When yOu say,

"I love yOu"

what do yOu fEel when yOu say that?

A treMor of nervOusness raCing down wiTh every heart BEAt.

A surGe of courage and streNgth to coNfess afTer the niGhts of sweEt thiNking.

A gOod chaNce to ruNaway, nOw that yOu've tOld the seCret of yOur heaRt? =P

Or mayBe..

Just a sOothiNg fEel,beCause nOw she's HapPy to know what dOes yOur heaRt say?

^.^

hihihihi.. I am sO the veRy raNdOm tOday XD Bian Bian! XD

#18 DE: >.< JaNg jaNg JaNg!! ^.^

2009-03-04T23:22:00.003+08:00

{4.3.2009-Wednesday}

Dear bloggie DiaRy,

I want my baBy! =(

blogGie ar,I didn't even get to speNd aNy tiMe wiTh hiM tOday,o.. I got up so eaRly aNd went to wOrk so eaRly that the oNly chance that I goT to talk to hiM was seCretly whiLe he was dOing his eXam,o XD Ahahaha YoU kNow, he's so....

ah..*melts* ^-^

ahAHAHa His meSsage was somethiNg like,

"Good morning. :) going work adi lar? Be careful k? Message me when you reach adi k? =) *softly kiss on your forehead* see ya."

{ahH.. I can alMoSt feEl him RealLy doing that adi,o blogGie deAr.. ^.^}

ahAhhAH aNd I was safe,indEed. Dad fetched me to the KTM station tOday, and there was where I met my graNdma's siSter's sOn XD aHAHAha My grandAunt's sOn,is it,o? XD ahAHAHah I fOund oUt his naMe was Aaron ^.^ aHAHAh aNd he's takiNG the saMe first traiN witH me toO! =D

So he oFfered to fetCh me hOme after wOrk from the KTM statIon ^.^ aHAHAH He's a kind yOung maN who works in the tOurism InduStry somewhere in KL XD sOmewhere..

I reached the kitChen eaRly tOday. YiPPeEe! ^.^ BUT.... juSt when I thOught eveRythIng's so perfeCt.. I was weaRing My nEw saFetY shOe alreaDy aNd brOught alL my working neccesseties:

1. My Uniform

2. Apron

3.Notebook

4.Pen{s}

5.Water bottle

6.Hankerchief

alL,bUt 1 whiCh I've fOrgotTen,blOggie..

My NeW Chef Hat,o =/ aniyo..

nOt as sYiOk syIoK already laer! =P XD ahAHAh so tOday I had to wear a canTeen laDy's haiRnet again XD ahAHAHA i stilL lOoked cUte,thOugh bloggIE XD My faCe looks evEn rOunder when it's oN XD

I peEled prawns in the morning,abOut cloSe to a 100 of them. And thEn,the Asparagus toO. PluS, I cleaned the saLted duCks toO XD ahahHA i have to telL you,blogGie that it feels so weIRd XD It's so sOft and smOoth bUt yet there's the lEg bOne prOtruDing oUt. You can praCtically feel the whOle sCale of the bOne inSide the meat. and theN there's the layErs of fAts where it's so sOft and it feEls so seNsitive on my finGers,o bloggie. I was so scared that I'll riP it apart while i'm washing the salt off. XD

ahAHha TheN,I went to heLp oUt to make Tomato Chutney ^.^ wOot woot! ^.^ It was hOt hOt,o to reDuce it aNd then slOw bOil it till it's all thiCk and YumMy =D I leaRned how to pEel tOmatoes wiTh oIl tOday. Do yOu knOw that if yOu uSe oIl to bOil it than hOt watEr, it'll makE the tOmatoes mOre creAmy-like and mOist? ^.^

aNd that, if yOu waNt to have the cOlour oNly yOu uSe a cOld watEr after that. If nOt, then yOu can juSt procEed to peEling it,o ^.^ bUt of cOrse, from different cheFs, they have diFferent ways of dOings thiNgs,thOugh blogGie. Keep in miNd, be oPen to new methOds always,yea ^.^

Then I trIed Chef Hafiz's Lassi driNk and it taStes curRy-iSh,o, aNd a liL likE dHal-iSh too XD ahAHAh and theRe's the freE ChocOlate driNk he gavE Me ^.^ Ouh.. If oNly I can share it wiTh baBy deAr,it'll be eXtra yumMy YumMy =D ahHAHAHA AnD when I thOught abOut that,suDdenly it taStes so muCh ChocoLatI-Er swEet aNd deliCiOusly

*gulp gulp guLp guLP*

Today, I talked to the Japanes Chefs mOre o tOwards the end aNd he was teLling me hOw there's nO uSe fOr a chef to have a Degree or a Bachelor. BUt I don't know.. I feel that, bY the tIme it's my tuRn to work,when I'm abOut 24-25, sOme chefs wiLl have a Bachelor, and a Degree by then,no? aNd if I am sOme of the fEw, when I graduaTe, I wilL have 5-6 yeaRs of wOrking experience already toO behind my back,wouldn't i be in the AdvaNtage siDe ? ^.^

rather than just having wOrking eXperiences.. oNly..

wOuldn't yOu thiNk? ^.^

aNd theN, there was a peculiar viSitor today. His name is Patrick and he is a lawyer who seems to be lost in his career. He wants to change to sOmething whiCh he liKes mOre, either in AdvertiSing or CuliNary. He was here tOday to ask Chef Hafiz for an adviSe on his career path,mOre like a brief talk about the liFe of a chef.

I gOt the chance to taLk to hiM toO aNd I feel that he lOoks a lOt like the AdvertisiNg kind of person yOu know. With the skinny jeans and tiGhtly,buttoned-uP shirt anD the swapPy waVe hairstYle. He lOoks very muCh like an aRtiStic maN, prOne to the desiGniNg, drawiNg,paiNTIng kind. ^.^

aNd at the eNd, I thiNk he gOt an Idea of a lIfe of a chef,i hOpe XD ahAHAHH But I reMeMbered what they cOncluded of a chef, that..

~We are slaves to our passion~

bUt aren't avEryoNe toO, to those whO saCrifices in oRder to achieve their dreams aNd ambitiOns? ^.^

TheN we wenT to Giant straight to bUy the grocery and thiNgs for the hOuse,along with sOme of teh iNgredients for my cOoking this Sunday,o bloggie dear ^.^ aHAHAha

bUt by the tiMe I'm hOme and have dinner and shower, it's already 11p.m. her adi,o. 2a.m. there already =/ aNIyo.. I can't taLk to baby dear adi lor.. i wonder if he thOught abOut me tOday or nOt thOugh,blogGie..

hmMm.. Okay laer, I betTer go slEep alreaDy,o ^.^

~AnyOng~

#12 DE: {A liL Zest of FuN and a wholesOme of brainstOrming..}

2009-02-27T18:23:00.003+08:00

{26.2.2009-Thursday}

DeaR bloGgie diaRy,

I got up at 8 to Cat's call aNd she came at about 9 with her 2nd sister,Connie{whO I thOught wa sher fiRst,bUt it's nOt! XD} ^.^ aNd theN we went to our 1st hOtel,of the day, Imperial Sheraton Hotel ^.^ this's oNe of the best hOtels with the beSt balRooms so far! =D Their ballrOom is GoOd-ly accomodating to oUr needs, of..

# Long Viking tables

# a spacious dance-floor

# a miNi stage

# Applicable decoratives

I like the wOman Rep. tOo. Well at leaSt untiL she made a stateMent that,

"I think yOu shoUldn't see tOo maNy hOtels. Because You will get cOnfused. Just follow your gut feeling."

What was that? XD fOllow your gut feelIng oNLy, yea aNd mOney wiLl fall frOm HEAVen to paY for our wanTs laEr,right wOman? XD ahAHAHa it shows hOw muCh she doesn't value the value of money riGht? there's a reason why we dOn't drag our parents intO these "huntings" one mer. Because we wanna shOw our responsiBiliTy for the paRty aNd in the eNd, shOw theM the beSt offer whIch we gOt mer.

Not whiCh oNe is the BeSt to suCk alL theiR mOney dRy from the baNk XD ah-well, I didn;t say anYthing thOugh. I just,"oh oh ohhh.." ^.^ ahAHAhah

neXt neXt was, JW Marriott aNd Ritz CarltOn! =D JW Marriott doEsn't have a balLrOom, oNly cOnferenCe rOoms XD aNd no way are we gOing to celebreate in a cOnference rOom,it's way toO sMall XD so we weNt to the Ritz aNd it's so the good gOod,o! =D ahHAAHah the waLls aRe all VictOrian claSsic-like aNd it almOst felt like as if we were in Lord Westcliff's{a VERY RICh aristocrat charaCter in a Victorian-themed Romance bOok whiCh Cat and i have been reading,o XD} hOuse at Stony Cross,o bloGgie XD ahAHAHa

They tOo, didn't have a bAllrOom bUt they do havE a baNquet halL ^.^

oNe whiCh,the fiRst tIme you see.. "Oh..I see."

then lOnger and longer it's like.."OooUhHh..."

and theN when you goTten to see the paSt events they held there wiTH all the deCos uP,"WoAaAhhHHH" XD

ahAahAHa iT Is THAT nIce,o =D and they say that thEy oNly charge for the DecO and fOod oNly somemOre XD ahAHAH wEeeee~~~~ =D We likeY Likey thiS hotel! =D

next we went to Hilton and Le Meridien which is oNly side by siDe. We cOuldn't get to see the Hilton's oNe,o for the reaSon that there was a government meetIng being held there. A D-8{8 cOuntry's rEp are there XD} mEeting, for Food Security appaRently XD

So we oNly gOt to see Le Meridien's oNe aNd it's nOt baD,o ^.^ They have that VictorIan fEel to it tOo =D and the wOman I like her, she's fuNny aNd as siLly, well almOst as siLly as I am tOo XD ahAHahAH they don;t charge for the reNtal tOo, oNly MeNu and basIC decOs ^.^

The Current Hotels still in RunNing to be piCked will be:

1. Sheraton Imperial

2. Ritz-Carlton

3. Ranaissance

4. Le Meridien

P.S. Chef AntOine stiLl wOrks there,o! ^.^ The firSt evEr REAL prOfesSional chEf whoM I met befOre. I met hiM at Taylor's 2 years agO, at their carReer day, aNd I got to talked to hiM toO ^.^ ahH.. maybe oNe day i CAN Go find hIm and prep talk toO XD hehehe..

We wanted to go to the Garden's but their balLroom's Occupied so, never mInd then =/ and we wante dto go Sunway Hotel bUt then.. jrEnG JreNg jrenG! XD Cat's car's buMper caMe out XD and we waited for her siSter's friend to cOme and fiX it laer XD MY Goodness, i wante dto takE a piCture for daRling to see bUt the Ajushi{It means,Uncle in Korean yeah,bloggie XD} friend of hers was a camera shY person, so never mind laer. XD

waiT for my next bumper incident only show huBby dear,o! XD ahAHAHa It was just so fuNny because we wee stranded in the caRpark aNd we waited and waited while he was fiXing it tiLl i almOst fell aSleep adi laer XD ahAHAhah Cat even fOlded me a nice Rose from the Origami paPer adi laer,wiTh all the time we spent there XD

and the hIghliGht for tOday wiLl be~

! Meeting the 1st ever chef of Chinoz,totally by acCident at an Italian Restaurant,

->Italian On Six<-

in the Pavilion o bloGgie ^.^ whiLe we were haviNg lunCh XD At the tiMe of Our entry, I already feel lIke hOw cOm the chefs lOok at me frOm the kitChen like in a sOmewhat a fattering way to me,o XD anD i wasn't ust imagining it laer XD I don't usually get these muCh attentIon yOu know =P and I'm preTty gOod at deTecting oNe if I aCtually do. They fOod was oKay oNly, for me.. and Cat tOo, bUt the deSsert was seriously yUm yum YuM! =D i'LL Upload the piCs oNce mum transfer from the card yeah! ^.^

In there,I was veRy atttraCted to their haTs,o. Chefs' haTs that is XD so I aSked the wiatRess at the end if maybe I can bUy theM? XD ahAHAH it's cause lIke in Chinoz,uSually I have to wear the shOwer cap whiCh they proide for visitors t the kiTchen oNe mer. Either that oR my nice talL hat which i got frOm helpiNg William last week One XD bUt that oNe's getting a liL oLd adi laer. aNd the One on IOS is so pretTy tOo because there is likE a fLower-patterned hOles at the tOp, for veNtilatIon One XD

aNd so the waitress went to aSk the chefs andshe ended up needing to ask the Executive Chef first,o XD whO waNts to talk to me first, to make friends maYbe? XD ahAHAHah His naMe is Ron Cheng, Chef Ron Cheng then ^.^ He aSked where I work,and I said in KLCC, in Chinoz. Then I asked,

"Hvae yOu eaten there befOre?" ^.^

and he said,

"My dear, I was the first chef for Chinoz. Way back when it was still in Bangsar"

oH-eM-Gee.. what are the oDds man!! XD ahAHah Meeting the fIrst EVeR Chef for Chinoz XD ahAHAH way befOre when Chinoz hasn't had mOved to KLCC. aNd I got to knOw whose my nOw's Kitchen Manager's name tOo, his name is Mr.Chong. aNd Chinoz's restaurant oWner is, Mr. Teng XD ahAHAha

Chef Ron was a stRong-heaDed persOn wiTh so veRy maNy of his chEfs in the kitChen frOm coLleges XD Like really really yOung Ones ^.^ frOm 20 to 21 years Old oNly,maybe? ^.^ AccordiNg to hIm that is,that the mOst impOrtant thiNg in this lIne of wOrk is,

Passion & Patience

Then,he asked the UnexpeCted,

"Would yOu like to see my kitChen?"

{wOoow.. All this whIle I've always been the oNe itChing to get inSide a kiTchen every siNgle tIme I viSIt a restaurant! anD NOW he's the one inviting me in? XD what happened? XD} ahAHAha and of cOurse i was eagerly agRreIng,

"YeS Yes please!"=D

ahAHAHah Inside, i feel that Chinoz's kitchen is better in the sense that everything has it's place and iT's fiLled with thIngs around XD bUt here, it's veRy liL only, maybe cause it's just opeNed abOut a month ago Only? ^.^ and there were 4 wOmen chefs wiTh 3 man chefs,o! =D cOoL,wei! XD ahAHahah =D Then he gaVe me a frEe Chefs' talL hat and weee,do I feEel HAPpY or what! XD aAHAHhA =D

we weNt oUt and he shOwed me the article whiCh was wriTten abOut him tOday, on the eXact same daY!! XD ahAHah it was on The Sun papers dated. 26.2.2009. tOday!! XD ahAHAHah wth? XD What are the oDds of that again? XD i really thiNk it's the lAw of AtTraction working here! XD

From my thoughts of,

When I'm 30 years Old, I will be so VeRy FamOus as the fiRst Malaysian wOmen chef who is awarded the Michelin STar1 =D ahAHAahAH i wiLl be so famous that I'll be on almost evEry newspaper cOver aNd on seVeral cOoking shows already thAt people whO used to know me wiLl be like,

"EI, isn't that the gIrl from the bus stop,maNy many years ago?"

"HEY! isN't that her whO was lining up for the train sOme years ago?"

"Is that her? The oNe who Ate wAy too muCh of the Shisamo the last time we went to Keyaki{my favOurite Japanese reStaurant in the world,bloggie!! XD}?"

ahAHAHHAA okAY MAybe the last One's a liL way OVER my ambition laer XD ahAHAHAH but I still do thiNk it's The Secret working. AttraCting me to these fuNny peOple so that next tIme when the tiMe comes, these wiShes of miNe wiLl come true ^.^ EverythIng just seEms to be inplace Now =D

and..blogGie..

I am RealLy a luCky giRl.. ^.^

ahAHaHAhahA

~AnyOng~

#11 DE: spaCe oUt aNd reaCh in..deep into yOur mind XD

2009-02-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

{25.2.2009-Wednesday}

DeaR bloGgie DiaRy,

Yo yO Yo! =D ahAhaha I weNt to work tOday,o.. ^.^ and the thing is I wOke up so veRy eaRly tOday, too eaRly i feel XD

aAHAHhaha and I reached Chinoz at a reCord tIme,at 8.10a.m. maN! XD ahAHah even earlier than mOst of the chefs there,o! XD and deFinitely MUch Earlier than my boSs-y XD ahAHAha

So the Other chef he taught ME hOw to blanch tOmatOes to make Bruschetta,o ^.^ aNd I felt my firSt BrusChetta was toO flavOURED You know XD Not sure if it's a gOod thing or a bad thiNg bUt definitely nO one can say it taStes Mild or normaL,o XD ahAHAHah

aNd praCtically, tOday I didn't get to learn muCh.. Because eveRyOne's way tOo buSy durIng lunCh hOurs aNd way toO streSsed during breakS that thEy had to go down aNd sMoke. aiShh..

i wonder wHy do all cheFs smoke oNe thOugh.. Do you know bloggie dear? They said that iT's the stress but I dOn't thiNk so.. I'm sure there are other ways to express their streSs-ness tOo.. ^.^ ahAHAHa

fOr One, I learned the iNgreDients for the SandwiCh menUs thOugh ^.^ There are:

#Roast Sanwiches

#Steak Sandwiches

#Lamb Sandwiches

#Tomato and Cheese Sandwich

#Salt Beef Sandwich

It was FuN fiGuriNg oUt the cOmbinations of the saNdwiChes as it's alL different bUt it's cOol! XD The oNe MoSt PoPuLAR is Roast Chicken bUt my favourite is Steak Sandwich. I aCtually can fEel myself drOoling iNternalLy while maKing it oNe,o XD ahAHAHha It was thAt yuMmy! =D

ahAHAH bUt the whOle day I was RealLy huNgry,o. From morniNg till my breaktiMe at 3p.m. I was staRving maD! >.<>

I felt weak aNd trembling wiTh starvatIon bUt I kept mYself strong and kePt driNking cup aFter cuPs of tea that thEy provide for the chefs to mAke mYself fuLl XD It was really a teSt to my miNd. I feel so shame shaMe haviNg to teLl the cheFs that I'm huNgry beCause what wOuld I expeCt? For theM to cOok me a niCe breaKfaSt ar? XD welL,they cAn bUt it's nOt nice riGht..

So when I had to help oUt to cUt the Cherry tOmatoes, when I accidentaLly cUt tOo haRd and the juice staRted sQuirting oUt frOm the siDe skIns, I aTe it Up iNstead of thrOwing it away laer XD aHAHAH Chef Hafiz said nOt to waSte fOod oNe riGht? XD aNd the gOod part of beiNg a chef is that yOu can eat aNythiNg yOu're maKing,riGht? XD I'm juSt serviNg the faMished cusTomers of villi on my stOmach mer =P XD

aHAHAhah aNd thaNk gOodness breaK tIme caMe at 3 faster thaN usUal aNd oFf I went to eat wiTh Ayie's sister ^.^ not sure what's her name yet thOugh.. she wOrks as a waitress in Chinoz ^.^ It was the firSt tIme that the Other chefs saw me eat duRing lunCh XD Because Usually I would've bEen tOo fuLl by the tIme our break cOmes. But tOday, I WAS VERY FAMISHED to the HunGer point of drOpping deaD at anY Time now XD

aHAhaHA AfTER that, i ruShed to KinokuNiya quiCk quiCk aNd got mySelf an..

InGreDient bOok! =D

aHAhahAHa WoOooOO!! XD It's so cOol yOu kNow! there aRe so veRy maNy piCtures of aLl the iNgreDients for cOoking inSide. Can yOu imaGine abOut 30 fUll paGes baCk and frOnt juSt abOut the kInds of chEesE? XD ahAHhA And nOt mentioning the kInd of fiShes aNd VeGes XD aNd it's all for a niCe RM44.89 oNlY! =D

There is thiS OnE whiCh I will get Myself when the tiMe is riGht. When I'm mOre aDvaNced already,o.. and whiCh i thiNk wilL be the veRy uSefuL for aNy fUtUre chEfs to get 1 too yeah =D It the..

Larousse Gastronomique

publisher: Prosper Montagne

But fOr nOw, I'm setTled wiTh my siMple,aNd begInner-cheF-frieNdly iNgredient bOok firSt,o ^.^ ahAHAH AnD tOday.. I went oNline mer hOr.. aNd theN darling so "eMo",o =P XD ahAHAha caUse I caMe bacK SO LAte tOday XD bUt blOggie cause the train was eXtreMely packed mer aNd muM brOught me to diNner first before we came hOme mer.. I miSsed my baBy daRling very dearly toO,o! the whOle day when I feLt huNgry and alOne.. in my hunger-nEss XD

bUt yOu know when I was pEeling the hard-bOiled egGs tOday aNd Ayie said that if I fiLl my basin wiTh water and peel it inSide the water presSure wiLl help me peel faster,o.. aNd so whIle i was peeEling the eGgs, my hands was underwaTer. I thought abOut my baby's haNds suDdenly, if hIs weRe in the water tOo, I bet he'll tOuch tOuch mine oNe,o frOm tIme to time XD ahAHAha aNd it made me sMile to mYself the whOle tIme untiL the chefs thOught I "hiaO" alreadY XD ahAHAhh

What an amUSing day I had tOday! XD

~Anyong<3~

#10 DE: A liL tiNt of MorNing kindneSs =P

2009-02-24T18:02:00.002+08:00

{24.2.2009-Tuesday}

Dear bLoGgie Dear,

As yOu have kNown, I am VeRy MuCh the HAPpY GiRl these 2 dAys,o XD

^.^ ThaNks to baBy deAr,ThomaS Yu,o! aHAhahAHa

i woke up at 5 tOday, thiNking that I'm gOing to woRK MAn, YEaHH! =D bUt thenn..

My whOle bOdy aChed,o eSpeCialLy mu tuMmy paRt, where the Pilates worked oN so MuCh yesterday XD

I got up nevertheless aNd heLped Hubert to finiShed up his hOmework beCause he cOuldn't yesterday XD anD oh-the-Dear-Dear.. XD i cOuldn't read those ChiNese cUrliNg chaRacters o,bloGgIe XD I heLped hIm as muCh as I can laer, reaDing siMple words for hiM XD ahAHAHahA AT LEAsT,RIgHT.. ^.^

BrOught Hubert to Ace-Ed tOday ^.^ ahAHAH It's hIs FiRsT EvER TuiTion ever,o! XD sO cUte XD HE wasn't nervOus at alL about mEeting new pEople,-it was mOre like he cOuldn't care lEss whO he meEts,o- bUt he was so wOrried that he dOesn't kNo how to introduce hiMself prOperly in English XD aHAHAhaha sO cUte,right? XD

He kept reaHearsinG wiTH me,If I was the teacher, then he wOuld say..

"I'm a new student. My name is Hubert."

XD LOL LOL LOL XD

My adOraBle liL brOther so 要面子 oNe,o bloggie XD

anD when yOu aSk hIm to make friends wiTh the lIl boys there, he was so stRaight faCed while saYing, "Hi" XD so sCarY maN! XD I thiNk he gOt it frOm dad,o bloGgie XD UsualLy when he dOens't like what he sees,yOu can seE thrOugh his eXpresSion oNe,o XD

aNd uNlike maNy other liL bOys, Hubert's a liL mOre geNtle aNd not as eNergetiC aNd RuNny as other bOys,o. That's wHy he wasn't reallY likiNg how the few bOys there was ruNning thrOugh halLways, Under taBles and in cIrcles tIll they drop XD ahAHAHa

i guess,yOu just nEed to givE him enOugh tIme to adjuSt and miNgle arOund,o ^.^ Because it's good alSo to have exposure for th liL oNEs eveRy nOw aNd then ^.^ and the fuNny thing is that there aRen't aNy girls in his class,o bloGgie XD oNlY 6 bOys, alL at the age of 8years oLd ^.^

Left him in class aNd weNt downstaiRs to settle the payments wiTh Teacher May and she waS perky tOday tOo XD ahHAhaHA Aunt Josephine{personal TraspOrter auNtie,o blogGie yah! ^.^ -whOse veRy very verbally active oNe,o XD-} drOpped me in gym and I went for a daNcing class, to lOosen up these muScles laer ^.^ but i lost the grOove adi laer XD

It's beEn ages since I danced any kind of ModErn dance, my grOoVIness weNt less laready,o bloGgie.. I couldn't catch up wiTh the cOordinations bUt at some paRts I aDmit it waS realLy flatTeriNg the way I moved =P XD Just sOme XD

Most of the aTtendants in the class aRe elderlY laDies aNd when yOu lOok at the miRror, they are gOod of course. They realLy put in the eFfort which sometimes Us young peoPle are lacking in. aNd maybe it's just cause the techniques and beats' not there yet, it lOoks meSsy,o.. I wonder hOw dOes the IntrUctor man feels XD He is a good daNcer,he, the Danny H XD i have no idea wHat does the H stands fOr but that's how he introduced hImself,

"I'm Danny H. anD You are?"

aHAhahaha he has the spiRit of a yOung 20 year Old maN bUt I thiNk somehow he's in his late 20s adi aler. Maybe.. ^.^

and as a rOutIne, I went to the wEt sauNa agAin for 10 miNutes and eWwwwwW.. i saw a liL inseCt iNside yOu know! >.<

I came oUt straight, so afRaid of the bacterias it'll eMit,o anD Took a nice clean shower aNd Aunt Josephine caMe wiTh Hubert in the cAr-so eaGerly hOlding his nEw workbOoks to show arOund-and we heaDed home =D

He asked if he stiLl has to go to schOol tOday? XD Because he said went for 1 schOol_assumIngly his tuitiOn class- already mer XD He was hOping taht he need nOt go to the schoOl whEre he has to wear a uniForm one o bloGgie XD how siLly thiS lil bOys is XD he gOt reaDy for the Real schOol whiLe i waited for Winnston to come hOme.

Hubert's oFf aNd WinnSton's baCk. He heLped me to catch the hamsters to place them in another tUb and i cleaned the cage already,o so it's brand new aNd dRy again ^.^ I tOuched Hamster's pEe PeE Today XD The shaw spreaD i had to take oUt form the cage, was eK-Ky wEt wiTh oeeE pee i suPpose, BEcause tHeir water's all the way On the other side yOu know XD ahAhahAHa

But it was all gOod, trainiNg my haNds to tOuch eK-Ky thiNgs, pracTISE PRActise to change fUture baby diapERS,o XD I shOuld get darLiNg to heLp me clean the caGe tOo shOuldn't i bloGgie? XD GEt hiM uSeD Too it tOo XD ahAHAHa =P

TalkIng abOut my darling hoR,he suRe is buSy now.. Online bUt siLent aready One,o my daRling XD aHAHha oH and you know,bloggIE.. He's gOing to UK thiS year yOu know.. ^.^ To atTend hIs 2nd siSter's GraduatIon o blogGie ^.^ ahAHAha If oNly I'm gOing to UK this year inStead of neXt....

~AnyOng~

#6 DE: WoRK WoRK ANd cUt cUt =D

2009-02-21T13:52:00.001+08:00

{20.2.2009-Friday}

Dear bloggie DiaRy,

I worked tOday..

But I didn't sleep last night, for the whOle night.

Which oNly brOught chaos to my senses in the kiTchen tOday.

I left my house at 6.40a.m. pluS plus aNd travelled thRough the same oLd paths,

cab-->KTM-->Putraline-->KLCC

then hOme,

cab<--KTM<--Putraline<--(bUy jUice at Juiceworks =P)<--KLCC

ahAHah ^.^

DaRling was pretTy woRried, I can feel when I told him that I cOuldn't sleep the whole niGht and i wa stiLl gOing to work. Because well If I didn't go to work today theN I would have to work durIng the wEEkends aNd I don't want thAt. WeekeNds are oNLY for balLet and daRling aNd gOod bOoks,o ^.^

bUt lEt's lOOk on the BriGht siDe anD dOcuMeNt what I learned tOday yEah! ^.^

P.S. I was eaRlier than Chef Hafiz tOday XD My meNtor XD HehEhe.. I reaChed at 8.10a.m. tOday! weEeeEe~

AnD he asked me to gRate pOtatOes for the cHips SInce it's stIll so early XD and I gOt a sliGht cUt on my riGht thuMb theN he stOpped me anD BRought me to pEeL PotaToes iNstead XD for the maShed pOtatoes later ^.^ There's a ceRTAIn skill to pEeling pOtatOes. The rule is,

=-One Stroke-=

dOn't be a meSs when pEel. oNe smoOth stroke is all YoU need.

Then I proCeEDed tO peEliNg OnIons XD aNd thIs was a lIl trIckier beCause yOu should never hUrt the oniOn{bY pEeling oFf the 2nd layER of it's flesh} bEcause if yOu do, it'll make you cry toO. That's wHat The MentOr said XD {That eXplains why people cry when they cUt oNions}

He showed me how to pEel oNioNs aNd the dIfference of sliciNg them. Then he gaVe me 3 sacks of OnIons to pEel XD Red aNd yElLow hUge oNes XD Oh-My-the-dEAR! XD

I staRted realLy slOw and slOwly I was gainING spEed and stregTh tOo XD aNd that's when I got..

*OUcH*

My fiRst dEep cUt on my leFt indeX fiNger XD It bled so muCh that the Head Pastry Chef{the oNly woMen in the whOle kitChen ^.^} was SCAreD, of my blOody fiNger XD She tHought that i was gOing to staRt crYing aNd all bUt I didn't ^.^ ahAHAha aNd yOu knOw, I thiNk i migHt juSt haVe a SpeCial pOwer yOu kNow XD My bLood clOt veRy faSt and sOon I was reaDy to pEeL again XD alThough it dOes stIll stiNg when the jUice fLows to my fInGer frOm the onion.

TheN as I was tRying nOt to be aFraid of the kNife, tRying to be friends with it. I don't abuse yOu, yOu don't abuse me tOo yA kNife-y.. Okay? ^.^ TheN Chef Hafiz heard abOut my cUt and he came again aNd showed me hOw to pEel again XD whIle tRying to eXplain what his teacher uSed to telL hIm last time,that

~!CoOking is like Sex!~

Oh-My-Dear bLoggie! I didn't know how to respOnd.. It was one of thoSe thIngs which makes it all awkward adi one,o XD bUt he said that he has to tell me fiRst because i'll be eXposed to such talks eveNtually, in another kitchen. aNd it's oNly when he eXplaiNed in a mOre appropriate way that I unDerstand what he meant.

"You have to tOuch when yOu're cOoking,yOu've to sMell anD TAsTE it to be able to fEel it *while rOlling the oNion in his palM* riGht?" ^.^

~..tRue tRue alSo,o..~

aNd Chef Farid did say that the mOst iMportanT thIng to be a gOod cheF is tO cOok frOm the heaRt~<3>

TheN thEn I cOntinued peeEling the onions aDi,o after I pushed hIm away from my cOunter,talKing abOut all tHIs Eww-y thIngs. anD then as i was atTentIvely pEeLing the oNions,oNe bY One..

*OuCh....=(*

I made my 2nd dEep cUt on my left miDdle finGer adi,o bloGgie.. See seE how bIg it is.. The 2nd One was evEn dEePer than the 1st oNe,o. My bLOod was praCticalLy squIrtiNg oUt of my skin yOu know. so sCarY! Not enough sleep, aNd now nOt enough blOod later hOw? XD thank gOodness my bLood clOts faSt tOo here when I apply some presSure wiTh the kitChen's tisSue rolL aNd I coNtinued pEeling.. bUt every now and tHen,it starts blEeding again aNd need to press oN it again,o XD

Chef Hafiz said that,

"this's just the begInning,STella"

Aaahh..!! XD

Today, the kitChen was veRy buSy durIng

lunCh hOur,o that I didn't get to ask muCh because everYoNe's so buSy with the slips of oRders. bUt what I did leaRn thOugh is from the Menu of the Tasting{GourMet} seCtion ^.^ whiCh my ah-tau is in charge of XD

The meNu was..{for RM100++ wiTh wIne}

Starters: Tian of Miane Lobster with Mango

=praCtically a maNgo salad wiTh tenDER lObster claw meat+orange dreSsing=

Main Course:{have to piCk 1 oNe,o}

Unagi and Foie Gras with Pinko

=Unagi wrapped arOund Foie Gras,acCompanied by Chef Farid's sPeciaL sauce

Rack of Lamb with Herbs

Trout en Croute with Sultanas Raisins

=saLmon trOut with a pastry wrap and sUltana raisins spread along the wrap and acCompanied wiTh Buere Blanc-alcoholic sauce-=

{famous because it waS firSt intRoduced by the firSt women chef in the UK who reCeived a Michelin STar ^.^}

Dessert: =nOt sure, didn't have time to check it out= XD

aNd the hOurs pasSed wiTh me back in the PaStry section again when Chef Ayie,Asst. Pastry Chef came for his afternOon shiFt adi,o ^.^ He let me tRy the Salt Chocolate Parfait and Oh-My-My.. It's so veRy cHocolaTy in a seA-saLty way that I've never tRied befOre. and it's so smOoth that yOu can aCtually liCk it like an Ice-creaM or bIte ot oFf PRETtY easily bUt not meLt-iLy. =D YuM yum! =D anD he said that iF i come on Tuesday,he'll teach me hOw to make Tiramisu! =D then i can make fOr darling Chinoz's YummY TiraMisU,o bloGgie! =D ahAHAHah

Then i WAS toO tiRed that by the tIme it was my break tIme, I went to the back aNd tOok a naP,o for an hOur ^.^ and then sOon it's back to work for another 2 hOurs and finally can gO hOme adi laer ^.^ daRling was liKe,"See.. so tIred adi. Go hOme and reSt adi laer" I thiNk if he's heRe he'll juSt cOme and drag me hOme adi laer =P AhahahAH maybe? XD

Then so happen the lIl Chef who juSt graduated frOm Uni 2 years ago,was gOing on the same firSt traIn wiTh me so I had a frIend then. But the thiNg about him is that he can't stand crowds veRy terRiBly bUt like we caN't do anythiNg abOut it yOu know, cause it's oFf oFfICE hOurs mer where there's lIke crOwd and crOwds of people waiting for the train. aNd so we waitEd laer, waSting precIous miNutes tiLl it's nOt so crowded anymore aNd he said that he rEally need to sIt, bUt like how to get a place to sit when it's so crOwded laer XD ahAHAHha aiYoYo XD this chEf ar XD I parted with hIm to go for my 2nd train adi,o aNd it was faSt faSt faSt laer cause I've to make it to the buS stOp befOre 8 so i'll be hOme befOre 9 aNd I did..

ThaNk gOodness ^.^

~AnyOng~

#5 DE: what caN I do tOday? XD

2009-02-21T13:48:00.001+08:00

{19.2.2009-Thursday}

Dear blogGie Diary,

It's the dAy, tOday that I will havE my firSt Taylor's kitChen ExperieNce yOu know =D aHAhahA a bIt uNpoDuctive in the morning though XD I woke up,offICIALLy at 3p.m. tOday and weLl, I've to be in the kitChen at 5p.m. tOday XD aNd the reason beiNg that i didn't sleep well last niGht, the whOle niGht sleep then wake up sleEp.. thEn waKe up XD ahahAHa It waS tiRing, I know.. aNd at first I wOke up at 8a.m. anD I thOught maybe I shOuld get Up..

bUt then my bOdy telLs me anOther thIng that, "dO get sOme reSt,STella.. dOn't be so meaN to Me! I need more slEep." So there I go baCk to my slEep and puRposely dOn't meSsage darling, see wheTher he care to cOme find me oR nOt mer =P XD hihihi.. bUt then i got "scOlded" in the end,o cause darling thOught I was beiNg a lazY piG XD slEep slEeP SLeep oNly..

It's nOt entiredly my fault, my bOdy's tIred mer and yOu know how my bOdy cLock's a lIl cuCkoo oNe o,bLoggie =./ so it was haRsh.. emOtionalLy reaTarded me when I woke uP.. but I've a miSsion tOday, to help William for the praCtical test. So I got up, washep up,eat uP, and got myself a caB and i reaChed juSt in tIme,4.59p.m. when I meet him. He borrowded me hIs kiTchen uniform from his 1st year,chEf hat{he gOt me the taLl one which made all the other students staRe at me, like where in the wOrl did i get tHose? XD} aNd the aPron tOo, pants I wore my Chinoz oNes o ^.^ AnD darling ar,yOu know bloGgie bYe bye ByE BYe byE Only ar! Didn't even cOme find me in the mOrniNg also =P XD ahAhaAha {Maybe he haD his reaSons laer, due to cErtain ciRcumstanCes he might ahve thOught I was wOrking tOday o riGht? XD alL he kNows is that I'm gOing to a kitchen,after all..}

He briefed me about the whole preparation anD what we were suPposed to do today and hiS other asSistant decided nOt to come tOday, because he's always been atTending to help,so he wants a break tOday XD ah-well.. It was kinda fuNny thOugh how i nOticed all the male chefs haD 2 male asSistants whIle William had 1 giRl asSistant XD aNd his leCturer is nOne other than Chef Francois ^.^ He was SurpriSed to see me there XD His eyes suDdenly gOt biGger and he just staRted lauGhing with his ExpresSion-->"What're yOu dOing here?" XD {SinCe I'm nOt even a stuDent yEt there XD bUt oh well, the Rules for a Commi is juSt nOt to be in the SAME year as the seniOr chef or a SENIOR to the senIor chef. They didn't menTion anYthing aboUT nOt alowing, gOing-to-be stuDents =P}

The whOle cOoking prOcess waS gOod bUt William was a bIt sHy when he was aSked to preSent the staRters and Chef Francois said yOu should say mOre about the food, the mOre the betTer.. FrOM intRoducing yOurself and yOur Commi{aSsistant}

Introducing the disH.

how yOu cOok it?

The difficulties yOu had when yOu cOok it.

What yOu feel about the disH. {tExture,tasTe,variety,cOlour of the whOle PLAte}

Explain if yOu've taSted it yOurself..

The whOle preSentatIon should last abOut 3-5 mIns. I feel so cOol lOr that when yOu get to preSeNt yOur oWn creatIon aNd get fEedbacks frOm them tOo ^.^

I got to meEt so the vEry sUpeR MAnY IndonS in the kItchen o XD Like at the bLender seCtion I met this oNe cOol giRl naMed Novi and another whO I can't seem to reMmeber her naMe bUt they were veRy heLpful to asSist me in bLendEr-Ing my chIcken anD eGg whIte and cream XD I saw Kenny there tOo! He was prepaRing for hiS practical teSt tOmorrow.. But stIll the fuNniest OnE is this 2 gUys frOm OppOsite oUr kitChen section, 2 Commis tOo, one is Eigan aNd the Other is James XD Tell me what yOu thiNk...

(....)STella: So where are yOu from?

Eigan: *wiTh a lIl Vietnamese acCent* From Vietnam.

STella: Oh.. arE yOu frOm Phnom Penh? {lIl diD I know that it's actually the Capital of CamboDia,not Vietnam XD}

Eigan: Eh Yea Yea! Phnom *in a weird pRonoUncing way*-->PiaAh.

*sUddEnlY oUr of nOwhere James smacked Eigan*

James: Shat-Up laer, yOu're puRe lOcal!

STella: LMAO.. wTh? XD

(....)STella: The hOw abOut yOu James. whEre are yOu from?

Eigan: This gUy ar, frOm Japan One..

James: *in a very cOnfideNt tOne* No laer! I used to study in Japan bUt I'm aCtually from Korea.

STella: Oh Oh! AnyOnG!! =D

James: AnyOnghaeseyo!! *bows dOwn quiCkly*

*oUt of nowhere Eigan sMack hIm on his shoulder tOo!!*

Eigan: ShAt-Up laer! you're lOcal alSo oKay XD

STella: SeRiOusly wth laer! XD 2 bIg Oscar lIars =P

Their Chef, i thInk Jason, a bOy wiTh an ExTRemEly cOnfident seNse of beLonging as a winner talks exTreMely a lOt. Also apParently he's Chef's Francois's tOp stuDent,maybe.. Because he was get an, "I eXpeCt betTer from yOu tOday,Jason. Next class Okay?" anD HIS DIsH is preTty InterSting, he made an Orange Mayo to accompanY his duCk ^.^ it was good I feel.. RefreShing.. ^.^

aah.. bUt alL's well.. William leT me cOok the RisoTto{an Italian riCe diSh} to acCompany his duCk aNd the Other chEfs stuDents said that it's nIce,o! =D yIppeeEe!! =D anD William diD well for his 2nd preSentatIon tOo, the duCk diSh o! =D pluS Chef Francois said the RisotTo was gOod tOo!! YeAYyy! =D ahAhahA So HappY! =D My firSt tIme for a RisottO And it's yuMmY XD

The tIme just flew yOu know when I'm in the kitChen XD soon afTer, when I look at the cLock it's alReady 9p.m. o.. anD ThomaS darliNG's getting woRried adi aler, that I got kiDnapped or something XD aAHAhah SiLly darling ar XD gEt kiDnappED by the tOmatOes and pOtatoes meh =P aHAhahA

aFter thaT, they had tO grOup uP and get cOmments frOm Chef Francois whIle Eigan aNd me weRe seCretly eating uP oRanGes at the back laer XD Because it iS Really yummy,o! aNd blogGie dear, It waSn't juSt aNy orange one yOu know!=D It's eXtreMely sweeT and taNgerIne-Y and it had that veRy cOoliNg efFect even wiThout it beiNg chiLled XD addITionalLy, it was a good deSsert laer after all the CreaM,egG anD oIl we had to taste whIle cOoking,o ^.^ aAhaHAh The gOod thiNg is, Chef Francois wanted each of theM to "baD cOmMENT" each otehr's cOoking by looking at it.. anD each whO suCcEeds get an adDitIona 5 pOints =P ahAHAH So the preSsure On adi,o XD ahAHahA

By the tIme iT's all dOne adi,it's cLose to 10,o aNd mum doesn't fEel well= dOesn't waNna piCk me uP,o =/ So well I got a caB aNd gOt hOme safEly anD Soundly ^.^ talk to darLINg awhIle then he feLl aSleep adi o XD ahAhah He muSt be RealLy tIred also laer.. ah.. ^.^

So the tHings i learned tOday are:

1.Poaching Chicken Mousseline need to be wiTh simmering water and NOT boIling.

2. More winE on the muShroom and shallots to make it more mOist+cOloured.

3. Duck is the MoSt fatTy kiNd of piGeon,so nO need to uSE oIl when yOu cOok it,yeah ^.^

4. Well cOoked duCk is a lIl piNk-ish on the meat and even if it's alL juSt liGhtly brown, it's oVer-cOoked adi,o.

5. PeEling aSparagus, liGhtly to prevent over-PeeLinG.

6.If there's 2 kInds of duCk on a plaTe, preferably have 2 sauCes made for it tOo o to have the balance in it.

7. Pour water a lIl by liL slOwly to cOok Risotto because they aBsorb liQuid faSt and cOok slow.

8. Use a spooN to scOop frOm the paNs, trays for hYgienic pOints.

9. Don't be aFraid to tell mOre abOut yOur cOoking beCause if even yOu're nOt cOnfident on the skiLls yOu've uSed on it aNd the effOrt yOu pUt to it, hOw wouLd other feel abOut it,yO? ^.^

~AnyOng<3~

#3 DE: InteRestIng and MariNAtIng my soul wiTh ExcitemeNtXD

2009-02-18T21:32:00.005+08:00

{17.2.2009-Tuesday}

Dear BloGgie DiaRy,

My daY toDay cOuldn't have been mOre prOducTive! XD I haveN't been thIs hard working eVer sinCe evER that I can reMember o XD ahAhaha well,it started wiTh me getting up at 7am XD caN yOu believe it!! XD ahAHAHA buT it waS kinda suCk-y tHough because I didn't get to sleep prOperly laSt night, again =/

Kept wakiNg up and falLing asleep and wakIng up again in the middle of the niGht oNly to know that it's onLY 3am. well then I got up with a sliGht heavy heaD and quiCkly go shower adi o aNd get a cab to SS15,Old Town to meet Up wiTh Yan and Darren{since he's back for a short viSit from NS mer =D} and the reSt{Kwan Yee, Yiin?} ^.^

Well apParently someone didn't wanna meet me that muCh =/ =P ahAHAHa Darren didn't cOme to Old Town,o sayIng that it's toO far XD wHy laer? XD it's oNly a miNute away walk from Asia Cafe-the place where he's at adi at that time- yOu know XD TeRRible laer! =P and well, I ruShed to the driving test centre there,o cause i'll be dOing my KPP test tOday-or is it called Undang? XD oh-welL..- aNd my cab driver was lost XD

He broUght me round and round the neighbourhood searchiNg the ceNtre and thaNk gOodness he was oNe of those drivers whO charges on a fiXed price cause he thiNks that the meTre won't earn him that muCh XD bUt loOk at hIm now, lost and gOing rOunds and rOunds and hOw sad is it that he can't gain those profit money cause he set a fixED price adi when I got in XD sEe, don't be so greEdy mer,Mr Driver XD

aNd so.. in the end he droPped me at Digital Mall where the UnCle from the driving centre came to fetch me wiTh Carmen in the car already,o and we headEd for the REAL driVing teSt ceNtre ^.^and guEss whAt bloGgie.. after wiating there for about an hOur, fiNally it was my tuRn to sit for the paper and it was all DigTalised intO the computers XD and I was so sleepY while I was doing the whOle set, bUt even so, I re-checKED aNd reVise my answers 2 tImes yOu know XD juSt when I felt confident enOugh and the tIme was uP anyway, I pressed "Send" and whne my maRks caMe uP, I couldn't believe me eyES! i coUldn't have goTten such maRks,wiTh the liL amOuNt I studied,it's stIll juSt tO o ImpossiBle to get such marks XD i got..

35/50

{the passing mark's 42/50,btw XD}

=( =P XD ahAHAHha =D

aH-well XD I shall juSt tRy harder nexT Time yeh ^.^ I gIve uP for the rest Of teh day already o cause I was uspposed to go to Taylor's and asks for my chef lecturer's aDvice on these cOoking eDucatIon bUt I was tOo tiRed and I need sleepp >.<>

"STella, cause I just don't want you to feel bad if she{the head prinCipal of the dance centre whiCh we are reNtiNg for the eXam} asks yOu to dance and yOu can't do the other 13 sets. So i was thiNking,is it oKay if yOu don't attend this tRials and maybe neXt week when yOu're free during the weekdaY, I will have a private trial for you,when yOu've learned all the Others too?"

Oh,THANK YOu dearest Ms.Mandy! =D ahAHAHA yOu always saVe me from these siTuatIons one,o XD ahAHAHA ^.^ i will practise haRd and get yOu a diStiNctIon this year oKay!! =D ahAHahAH

{fyi-bloGgie, it's not that I'm a retarded balLerina whO Doesn't know how to dance BuT it's just that I skipped Grade4,5,6 and Intermediate Foundation to be in Grade 7 ^.^ so that's wHy I'm a lIl unable to do a few of the dances and takes lOnger tIme to catch up with the teChniques ^.^ that's all..}

ahAHahHA and so wiTh a GrEAt OpeN heaRt I was bOosted wiTh eNergy alReady aNd I deCided that I'm gOing to Taylor's and at leaSt make a use of my tIme and nOt just waste tIme skiPping my ballet tRials mer XD aAHAHah i always gEt thIs suDden buRst of enERgY one yOu know when I have to go fOr anyThing whIch is cOoking related! =D woOoo WoOooo! =D and THAnk gOodness I went because.. ^.^

I got to meet wiTh these wonderful chefs Once again XD well, at least 3 of them XD cause 1 was a new one whOm I just met cause the rest were buSy =P So when I asked for Chef Frederic or Chef Karam, the reception laDy,Rose called on Chef Francois Loubet-Lescoulie instead XD He was veRy veRy frIeNdly, SuPeR aCtualLy XD He has RealLy bLue eyes and RealLy lOng laShes that it even beat mine,o XD ahAHAh and the gOod thiNg abOut him is that he reallY liStens to what I have to say abOut the path I'm thiNking to tAke and then adviCe me on sOme toO according to his experience,o.. Like a ReaL eDUcaTor shOuld be, heLping pOor "loSt"+"UndeSicive" stUdent like Me! XD =P ahAHA Too baD he won't be aNy of my teaCher thOugh, because he oNly teaCher the Higher Diploma students.. =/ ah-wEll XD ahAHah His background is: Study study study in ToulOuse and go rOund kitchens{in Europe} to work,o as trainee-->stuDy in Tyalor's in Malaysia-->wOrk in Europe again until becOme-->ChUn chef-->teach in Taylor's Malaysia ^.^ And his coNCluSion is: "There is sO maNy gOod Culinary Schools in France, why don't yOu go there? *writes down all the gOod cities where I should check the coLleges and Unis one,o* aNd if yOu have the financial capabiLity to go,why nOt? ^.^"

And theN i aSked if Chef Frederic is free now cause i'd just like to get to knOw as muCh as i can frOm as many chefs as pIOssiBle yOu know ^.^ aNd he was kiNd,he broUght me to the kitChen whIch causes a lIl stir inSide beCause there's me, nOt prOperly atTired and walkiNg In so randOmly with whOm,I soon fOund out was oNe of teh gIrl stuDents' Chef leCturer heaRt throb XD ahAHah aah.. Girls ar,realLy XD well, I met wiTh Chef Frederic and of cOurse he fOrgotten me abOut me already aNd the seriously weiRd tHing is that, Out of all I can say to remind me of oUr last meetIng, it's oNly when I mentiOned about the tIme when He inSulted my baGuette dOugh-whiCh is btw,SUpER ChuN as Chef Karam helped me a bit laer =P-, that he remembers me XD like wth maN! XD Chef Frederic was LHAO adi laer XD

He aSked me to wait and watCh first then he'll talK to me oNe he fiNished wiTh that 1st Term of 1st Year students,o XD {My badge one lor XD} aNd so I waited while the lIl chefs were starIng like,"wth is this girl doiNG HERE in the miDdle of the class XD" and they were so IntriGued whY I was there man XD sO when Chef Frederic Cerchi was finally free already, we went to Taylor's training reStaurant, L'escoffier and he was siDing Taylor's more than the Other chefs yOu know XD Like reallY SO the PatRiotic wiTh Taylor's o XD ahAHah MAybe cauSe like he's frOm TOulouse toO like Chef Francois,so he siDes it a lIl mOre,maybe =P so His baCkground is: Study 6 years in Toulouse{siNce he stuDies for frEe,cause France is a kInd coUntry to their children,acCording to hIm XD}-->wOrk arOund Europe,France,UK,Italy,Asia tOo aPparently ^.^-->Teach in Taylor's ^.^ aNd his cOnclusion is that: "I like what they teach in thiS Uni{Thames Valley Uni,the one I want to gO,o =D} but they don't teach yOu much of the theory to manage yOur own kItchen you see *poInts down the syLlabus list on the prospectus* how will yOu be an Executive Chef if yOu've no knowledge hOw to manage it? Many people say They'll hiRe an acCountant and manager and alL, and do yOu know yOu'll spend so muCh unneCcessary mOney on them and what if they mean to cheat your money,since yOu won't even know.. {tRue truE..}*search my eyes thRough the list too and pOints to hiM "Reataurant Management" XD wth,was his eXpressIon =P} and theN he said well, if yOu have the mOney of course,go.. because I know, the EducatiOn in EurOpe is way wAy betTer than it iS in Malaysia, no matTer how good the Uni is here.."

2 YeSs alReaDy then Bloggie! =D AhahAh theN sinCe like Chef Frederic is Really buSy now, I asked for Chef Karam Instead,like is he free maybe? ^.^ and he broUght me to hIs paStry kiTchen at the back of the cOllege and there i see hIm =D Chef Karamvir Singh Godrei! He's lIke the gOdfather of Pastry,o bLoggie dear XD ahAHAH ^.^ He studied in Canada, straTed in Canada,won SO THE VErY MAny medals in Canada for PaStry, he's lIke One of the cOoLest granDpa I know,{alOng wiTh my graNdpa tOo,yeah! XD I'm not an ungrateful granddaughter YoU know =P XD heHehe.. XD} cause he cOmes back from Canada when he retired so thAt he can be with his granDdauGhters as they grOw up ^.^ ahAHaAHa ^.^ aNd pluS he's a cOol dude whO treats his stuDents tO yUmMy sUpEr-duPeR sCrUmPTiOus Cakes! =D ahAhahah and this is his bacKGRound: Trained at Humber College of Hospitality in Toronto,Canada-->worked in hOtels in Canada-->Crown Princess Hotel KL as Executive Pastry Chef-->and teached at the Pernas Hotel School in Kuala Lumpur-->theN Taylor's School of Hospitality and tOurism =D and his cOncluSion is: "I've heard of this InstitUte{TVU ^.^v} and it's gOod,so dOn't bOther fiNding another one{when I aSked hIm if he has any other Universities to recommend,yOu kNow XD}. {tHen i aSked what dOe she thinks about the cHices i have,tO stay Or nOt to stay? XD wEll,If yOu can, I don't see whY nOt? ^.^"

Then he brOught me to see CheF Norizan,whO is the firSt Chef of Tyalor's whOm I met laSt year DuRing my vIsit to Taylor's XD ahAHah and SHE is the oNly One whOm reMembered me the iNstance she sees ME XD ahAHHA how swEet of her yOu know =D ANd she's Really cUte tOo,like wiTh her cHARActer anD the wAy she speaks XD ahAHAHa ^.^ She's the leaSt I know about bUt here's here background: After SPM-->Train train train in tHe kitchens-->Taylor's teaching ^.^ and her cOnclusion is that: "I think yOu should stay here in Taylor's at leaSt unTil you finish yOur Diploma aNd theN maybe yOu can gO. At least yOu get yOur baSics riGht here first ^.^"

ahAHAHa I guess thAt's lIke 3 YeSs and a Half? =P XD ahAHAha So it's YesSS then i guEess YeAH? XD UK, hEre I cOmE!!!! =D XD

then Then I went baCk tO Chef Karam's kitchen again to heLp out with the measURiNg of the fLOur aNd the IngrediEnts for the baKing class he's haviNG,o ^.^ aNd there I meet 4 vEry lOvely helpers of hIs tOo,whOle hired on the hOurs XD anD I was there to oNly to "Observe" as hOw Chef Karam puts it XD TheY are:

1.Theresia {Tourisn aNd ManageMent}

2.William{Culinary Arts}

3.Kenny{Culinary Arts}

4.an uNknown maN from TBS{Taylor's Business SchoOl}, but nevertheless stiLl a niCe bOy ^.^

aNd William wiLl be haviNg his practiCal teSt tOmorrow aNd he oFfered me a pOsitIon as hIs Commis Chef! WoHoOo! =D cOol cOol MaN! =D ahAHah My fIrst tIme working in the Taylor's kitChen! =D ahAHAHha I juSt hOpe nOw that I'll be of heLp to hiM ^.^

P.S. a liL somethiNg elSe whIch I'd like to add to what Chef Karam said yeah! =D He said that he see "The PasSion" in Me,o bloGgie! =D aAhahAh and he said that it's ReallY,The uTmoSt important thiNg in this iNdustry for yOu to suCceed to have "The PasSion"! ^.^ Because with it, yOu will suRely find yOur way thrOugh and everytHing no matTer how iMpossible it miGht seem it will all fall in place for yOu ^.^ and he said that,"I know yOu can go veRy far from here" ^.^

I can't descrie hOw HAPpY i was at that tIme, to have someone realIse hOw muCh I want this carEer in this iNdustRy, when eveRyone's lIke,"WHAT? yOu're taking Culinary Arts? cOoking? wHy don't yOu think abOut it mOre firstbefOre yOu deCide,STella?". ahAhah wHaever they may say, I'm not chanGing my mInd XD I'm stiLl Open peoPle's Opinion, I can;t change them if they don't want to, I will hear them oUt bUt I don't have to take them all to heaRt right blogGie? ^.^ If nOt I'll be likE a bOx fuLl of AnGRY+saD emOtions adi aler XD

ahAHAH aNd he even oFfered me a wOrk in his friend's restauraNt since I'm so keen to be in the kitChen and I miGht be leavIng Chinoz, oNce I start cOllege, because it's just way toO far adi o later for me to go afTer cOllege.. bUt this place is in Ampang, it's a French resTaurant and they need some help in the kitChen.. so I tOld him that,

"I don't have any skills in coOking or anYthing yet yOu know.."

bUt iNstead of, "Owh.."

he said.."It dOesn't matter, as long as yOu'd lIke to learn and I can see that yOu really want tO.. If It was me,I would've hiRed yOu too in My kItchen."

*treNg trEnG treng.. I cauGht the attentIon of the guard to Heaven's gaTe adi,o* =P XD

ahAHAHah

~AnyOng~

aim high, The Sky Is The Limit.. Not AnyMore! XD

2009-02-15T15:40:00.004+08:00

Dear blOggies ^.^

Have yOu heard the news I just read? XD WOaHH.. I feel soo hOoliGan-liKe when I read it at fiRst and oh-my-the-Dear-Dear XD Do yOu know..the there is a kInd of a new tOurism now being invested by the Russian government and the US too XD YeaP YeaP! It's the

~!SPACE TOURISM!~

Interesting,ei? XD Check out this website..

http://www.spaceportassociates.com/minitut.php

It costs abOut $200,000 to $100,000 now bUt maYbe in 10 years tiMe,it'll *BoOoM* deCrease and here I cOme! XD ahAHAHa ^.^ They say,there's even Space Hotels there and Space Museums tOo XD ahAHAH How sYiOk is that mAn! XD ahAHah Wonder if there's sPace Monkeys on display,or SpaCe dOgs like to commemorate the past eXperiment pets ^.^ ahHh.... How the wOrld have changed,dear bloGgie.. ~X)

P.S. My nose's runNing away adi laer >.< leh ="/">

2009-02-13T06:33:00.001+08:00

*blog cuRreNtly uNder Update and skiN-Ning RenOv*

..SoRry for the IncOnvenIence,bloggies..

Will be baCk IN ABout a weEk or so? ^.^

=D HOpeFulLy,ya!

How short can life be..

2009-02-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

Hello,bloGgie dears..

a liL notice first,o. Yesterday, a normal day for most of us or even a sad one for some,but yesterday it was a day when our dearest teacher, Puan Daisy has left us to go a better place, up in heaven.. let's have a moment of silence for a teacher whom we knew as "EviL" at first bUt as we get to know her, she was oNe of the BeST in school..

*silence*

It was because she always asked us to, "Tuck in your shirt!" , "Pull up your socks!" , "Tie up your hair or I'll cut it off the next time i see it hanging like that" .. ahah.. so evIl yet so kind, because all she ever thOught for us was to get our grades up and to churn us into yOung ladies and gentlemen, as how Mr Chew would've put it. She,oNe of SriKL's BeST teacher, oNe of the ScaRy oNes, fuNny oNes and mOst defINItely oNe of the mOst caRing oNes ^.^ this cOming frOm STella whose rarely on time for her class, it might seem unbelievable bUt every siNgle class of hers in Form 3, makes me heart beat with fear aNd tremOrs of terror.. whiCh soOn I found out, aren't what they seem,because now I know, it was just nervousness for her acceptance of my work and the hidden tinge of confidence that she will be pleased with my craft work. For her I want to present a thank-yOu-veRy-muCh, as I was mOsT organized thRoughtoUt that whOle year,oNly for her suBject and Puan Lim's Geography X) ahaha.. she is sOmeoNe i wilL remeMber, for the years I had in hiGh school. Do take care Puan Daisy.. =)

So blogGie, yOu know in a period of 1 year, I've lost 2 great teachers. First Mr.Ding and then Puan Daisy.. why do they take away the sweetest people first? Last time,in Std6, they took Mr.Singh. *ouh* why oh why? So it makes me thiNk, when the time comes, no one can run away from it anymore,right? Like when it's our time to be brushed away from this Earth, there's nothing we can do eXcept to wish that we've led a fulfilled life or in some other's case to regret the thiNgs that we have not done or have done. That i find is a very sad feeling to feel o.. bUt how do yOu know whether yOu'll reGret doing this that or nOt befOre you lose it.. Oh the evIl RealiTy! you'll never know how much somethiNg means till yOu've lose it. how many of yOu bloGgies believe that? I migt, paRtly, bUt I think, that there is a way to contradict that.. sOmehow.. fOr now, I think I'll resOrt to foLlowing my heart's intuition. As how they said in the bOOk "Blink" yOur inner voice can make wOnders sOmetimes if you give them a chance to. and frOm the book, "TheSecret" the Universe is always listening, so it's up to yOu to send out a pOsitive or negative attitude to your surroundings. What you do toDay will be a sketch of yOur life tOmorrow,like an after-effect.. I do believe that,blOggies dear ^.^ bUt the baSe of all this is also a nOrm quote of, "Life life like it's yOur last.." bUt never toO eXtreme oKay XD Have to take caRe so that yOu can lIve tOmorrow tOo! =D

So when life brings yOu to Korea, to Nami iSland, let yOurself have a..

*YuMmy GreEn tEa, rEd beaN cake!* ^.^

and if lIfe briNgs yOu to YoNgpyOng Resort duriNg snowy tImes..

LauGh oUt lOud aNd SpreAd the waRmth of yOur LOVE aLl arOund,yAh! =D

HAPPY CNY,yO! =)

2009-01-27T21:01:00.000+08:00

HaPpY ChiNEse NeW YEaR!!

ahAHHa GeT Lots aNd lOts of "hOng-pau, aNg-Pau" thIs yeaR yeh deAr blogGies! ^.^

aNd I wish fOr an EvEn bEtTER year thiS year! wiTh lots of HaPpy begiNniNgs aNd MomeNts to cheRish..

Love,

{~:+:~ STella-shi ^-^v~:+:~}

20th-22nd My liL CarEer STarters ^.^

2009-01-23T01:43:00.004+08:00

Yo yO wHat's Up blOgGie? =D

ahAhaha HoW are yOu faiRing tOday? GoOd yAh,i hOpe! ^.^

Let's start OuR "STella's CArEeR-STarter AdveNture" jOurnal shAll we.. ^.^

From the 20th of January 2009:

I woke up lAte again, as usuAl when there's sOmething iMpoRtant the neXt day OnE{better tRy to change adi o thIs naughty bOdy clOck of mine XD} aNd well, I had to rush a bIt bit,o because I was late for my 1st iNterview, with Chinoz already by 2 hours XD ahAha HoW punCTual can I be man! XD sO as laTe as I alreaDy am, I woke muM up hOping that she WILL wake uP and fetch me to KLCC{faT chuBby Hopes I have XD} bUt Instead, she said,"I give you many many money, you go with the maid okay? *sMiles sleEpily and falls back to sleep already* XD" it was so... -i don't know what to say anymore- =P so I acCepted the mOney offer as oUr traNsport fees for the day aNd set off first with a cab to the KTM statiOn and aFter 2 trains, we arrived saFely aNd adrenaline-lY ruShed to gEt oUt frOm the crOwd and make it as fast as I can to the restaurant XD and guess whAt, i was theN.. 4 hours late >.<>

ahAHAHA and I did, there I went with my maid to stOp a cab uNder the hOt why-laer-out-of-aLl-days-yOu-chOose-to-shIne-sO-tHe-HAPpiLy-tOday SuN beCause the already waitiNg caB's like charging us RM20 to Jalan Tun Razak,whiCh according to the KLCC inquiry-women, it's oNly 10 mins away XD what is this right? The cab driVers are lIke leeChes only, suCk suCk your mOney out of yOur wallet beCause thEy kNow that iT's scORcHiNg hOt that dAy and yOu feel it! BuT, the twiSt of fate for theM is,... *tRaM traM trAaaAM* I brOught a fOldaBle mIni UMbrElla! XD ahAHAHa tOo baD, baD leeChes! XD One caB stOpPed for us and offered RM10 XD I kNow that it's stIll not the eXact riGht priCe bUt, need to save tIme, aNd sKin quality laer =P

So we weNt wiTh it and reaChed Cilantro safely bUt kInda lOst,blogGie XD becauSe riGht, the cab driVer have no idea where's Cilantro and alL i kNow is that it IS in a seCluded aRea acCording to KY{the chUn chUn fOod bloGger ^.^} aNd that it's belOw the Micasa Apartment XD sO we waLked uP aNd dOwn the lOng stretCh of lOnEly rOad-ocCupied-By-cOntruCtiOn-wOrkers aNd STill cOuldn't fiNd the Micasa A. aNd do yOu know why? XD Ahahah BecauSe that's the apartment whIch is under cOntruCtion aNd it was cOvered wiTh the GreEn stEel walls XD ahAHAha aNd when I fiNally fOund oUt frOm the UndergrOund guard whO was in charge.. The Restaurant Cilantro has been closed for days, or maybe a week alreaDy!!!!! wHat?? Then I tRied calLing the restauRant, again and again, until I thiNk was my 40th time, i give up calling adi o.. so theN there's a mYsteRy of wHo was I talking to on the 18th when I called to ask for an interview aNd when I heard the baCkgrOund of a fuLLy-pacKED-rEstauRant aNd when the "ouTleT maNager" aCtually calLed me baCk aNd cOnfirmed wiTh me the intervIew to be a barista or waitreSs tOday?? XD ahAHAHA There's no other Cilantro restaurant as far as the cOntructIon manager knows and thIs one's been clOsed for days to a week!! so who were the peOple whOm I was talkING tOo?? XD *gOosebumpS RIsing adi* XD -idOn'tknOw>.<- we stOpped a cab and quiCkly went back to KLCC maN! XD and this driVer's gOod beCause he fOllows the MeTre! ^.^ "GoOD driVers, uSe metRes" =P ^.^ aHAHA anD It OnlY costs RM8 ^.^ HihIHi.. save anOther RM2 adi =P XD ahahAHA

theN there waS stiLl abOut half an hOur befOre 3 so I went to kai kai a bIt laer =P yOu know aler,girls =P XD aHhaHA bUt i know have to savE money adi,o sO I went to an aRts an craFt shop oNly laer and bOught liL Lil pretTy thINgs and preTty papers to reload my paper bOx toO ^.^ ahAHah in the eNd speNd quite a lOt also leh XD ahAHAH i thInk hOr the beSt way to make me save mOney is to loCk my mOney in a permanent-ly banNed withrawal acCount One =P XD ahAHAh

sO there i went again back to Chinoz and a frIendly waitRess wiTh the name of Dilla gavE me an apPlicatIon fOrm and showed me to sit by the end of the restaurant to fill my partiCulars aNd on the way thEre, I saw a chef staring at me on my leFt but he was wiTh anOther girl, talking, bUt yet he's loOking at me XD I thInk he's getting a fEeLiNg of "heRe's anOther nEw eMployee",o XD sO i just sMiled to be cOuteous and yOu know what, he just kept staring XD ahAhaha so sCary! XD I quickly tuRned bacK to my paPer and fiLled it in laer aNd whIle dOing so, a few of the cHefs frOm the kItchen peePed oUt frOm behInd the SUshi bar anD that's the fIrst tiMe I met my fuTure coLleges, and the oNly 2 whO dared to talked to me first was, Paul{a KDU CulinaRy graduate, talLk and biG XD} aNd Mr.chef1 {soRry, stIll can't reMember his naMe laer, bUt he's oNe of the most frIendly peOple there I know laer, You'll hear mOre baoUt him in the neXt day jOurnal yEh,bloGgie! ^.^} after that I passes uP my fOrm to the Chef lor, he say sinCe i wanNa wOrk in the kiTchen, it'll all be undEr him,o XD anD SO i just stOod there wHiLe he reads my fOrm and here aRe sOme of the qUestiOns HE posed on me-

Chef Haffizul: Tell me,hOw do you make a carbonara sauce?

STella:eRrrM.... *wiTh utter hesitatIon* creaaaaam?

Chef Haffizul: and?

STella: hmmm.. eRRm.... ermm.. -after a few seconds-*wiTh evEn more heSitatIon bUt a fEeling of neCessitY to tell the truTh =P* .... i don't know.. *eMbarrassed* XD

Chef Haffizul: How can yOu not know if you wanna be a chef? okay howabout Napoleanese?

STella: eRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....m.... crEeeEEamm? XD *tOo muCh emBarrased tiLl dOn't know how to desCribe already* XD

Chef Haffizul: *cold stare* Okay. something easier. Tell me how does spaghetti look like?

STella: cYlindrical,long and a bit thiCker than angel hair. *waaah.. at least can get this right!* XD

Chef Haffizul: How about fettucine?

STella: flat and wiDe.

Chef Haffizul: How wide?

STella: half a cm? *seriously have no idea how biG is half a cm also XD*

Chef Haffizul: yOu can't*suDdeNLY interrupted bY Dilla for awhIle*

*thank goodneSs* XD *saVed my lIfe frOm further embarrassement*

theN yOu know, h broUght me to the kitChen and tested me to stanD NExt to evEry stove and see whetHer hOt or not? of cOurse hOt laer! XD bUt I can stand one! ^.^ aNd then he aSked that if I were to be scolded by hIm straiGht to my faCe if he dOesn't like what I'm dOing with the food, wiLl I cry? XD {aNd i thOught, I miGht as weLl tell hIm the truTh than nOt keepiNg my words later XD} sO i said,yea, I will bUt I will cOok finish firSt theN only go to the back fo the kitchen anD cRy. aNd yOu know what he said blogGie? XD he said he AcTUALlY Doesn't miNd if I cried on the spOt XD sO cOld hearTed maN this chEf! XD aNd wiTh that he sAid, cOme here tOmorrow morning at 9am, I'll tRy you out on the kitchen fiRst ^.^

~the end for the 1st day of AdventuRe~

theN cOmes the 2nd dAy,21st January 2009 ^.^

{My VeRy FIRST DAY wOrking anD eXpeRienCing aNy ReAl, RestauRant kitChenen,o XD ahAHAHAH =D WOoHOoooo! XD}

~to be cOntinued,yeh! ^.^ tOo sleEepy already laer XD and Mr.T alSo sleEp unTiL DoN'T Know dream where adi o XD ahAHAh Mr.T ar,do waiT for me.. imissyou,o today.. really very much much,o.. =/~

bluEk =P

2009-01-20T00:42:00.004+08:00

pSsstTttt.... ^.^ Yo Yo, BlOggie! ^.^

hehehehe XD LaZy to blOg today laer cause nOthing muCh happened eXcept for that went to gYm had a pretty uNprOduCtive woRkoUt cause cannot do aNy maChines alSo aNd my leGs were toO tiRed to dance so muCh,o.. pOor body of miNe.. *sayAnG SAyaNg* XD ahAHAhah welL, anyhow, thank gOodnEss the Steam rOom was gOod, sOft soft adi my fluFfy hair XD ahHAHAHA *bOing bOing* XD aHaHAHAh aNd theN Yiin and I went to maMam at Moon Garden and healThy o bOth of us, eat vegetarian and so sad laer caus eth ReallY Yummy-anD-fEsTIve-cOlOuRed Mix fRuit Salad no more adi =/ aiShh..

AfTer that I came hOme and fall aSleep on my cOmfY cOld bed adi,o But theN I Got a nIghTMaRe,o aNd it was sO sCary,bloGgiE! >. <

"It started witH me working in this stYliSh baR and then there waS this customer wHo has dark brown curls and he loOks so stalker-iSh,o with the way he kept lookING at me acRoss the rOom. i tried to shRug it off laer, bUt theN suDdenly got earthquake,o XD and theN Mr.T caMe to my resCue as he drOve his something-lIke-BATMAN's-suPer-indEstRuctiBle-caR *aah..XD ^.^ so cOol!* and theN as we weNt uNder the grOund aNd thrOuGh tunNels aFter tuNnels, theRe was pOlice cars everywhere even uNdergrOund tOo bUt thEn gOt skeletOns In theM Only >.< *eEeWwww* AnD THEn i saw.. the liGhT.. where it was carbOoT dOor aNd i was inSide. Then a hUmoNgOusly-giGANtIc-aRmy-laDy carRied me to a really preTty pRinCeSs-y rOom with liTtle uNicOrns and coTtON CANdy cLouds decoratIng the wall and it was alL tOo preTty tiLl i saw "THE MAN"! >.<>

*sob sob* ="(

MovIng on to HAPpier thiNgs nOw. gOt myself 4 iNterviews! YoHoOoo!! =D ahAHAHhaa These are the fOllowing:

Tuesday.20th-Chinoz{Waitressing} & Cilantro{Services,Waitressing,Barista}*hOpefUl for Cilantro ^.^*

Wednesday,21st-Westin KL{Waitressing for Prego} & JW MArriott{Waitreesing for an upcOming banquet}

wEeeT WeEeet.. more IntervIews coming ^.^ tomorrow still need to call baCk MaMaison, Brasserie Balzac aNd Le Bouchon ^.^ ahahha I hOpe I can get to Ma Maison,o cause i know a Really faMous chef in France who gOt her first jOb in Ma Maison too! XD bUt of cOurse not the Malaysia oNe laer, but the OrI in France one XD ahAHAh ^.^

wiSh me luCk yAh, bloGgie dear ^.^ ahHAha i wanna go to bEd adi laer,Mr.T alSo sleEping adi lor XD aHAHAha niGhT NiGht ^.^

P.S. EnjOy the MuSic by the siDe,yeh! ^.^ hehehe It miGht not be the cOoleSt bUt it's very soOthiNg, som elaer =P ahAHAh

P.P.S thaNk yOu,Villi for helPing me pUt the muSic thiNgy up ^.^ ahAHA and dOn't undEreStimatE ME,i tell yOu! ^.^

Mr.T, don't wake up adi tiLl tOmorRrow laer.. gEt more reSt first yA! ^.^< 3

HEY there, YoU lOveLy SuNshiNe yOu! =D

2009-01-19T00:19:00.000+08:00

M{s}{r} BloGgie! =D

NyeH nYeH nYeH NyEhHhhh!! XD ahAHAhah *lOoks uP at the brIght sunshiNe abOve my head aNd sMiles to mYself fOr aLl the HapPineSs this liFe, or rather lOve can briNg to even the tiNiest, shOrtest person* =P XD aHAhahA =D

Today, is just an ordinary day{or so i thOught.. =P}, in the morning I couldn't go gym and practise adi because i woke uP laTe because I slePt late XD ahAhaahA KarMA! XD nOt treaTing my bOdy welL and nOw it waNts reveNge by nOt letTing me enjOy my wanTS tO dance XD ahAAha So then woke up and ate Mum's Fettucine anD GoSh it's RealLy yummY, but a tad tOo creamy fOr a 2nd bOwl XD aAhahah i gues sit's the kind of fOod where yOu juSt have to giVe it aLl yOur enjOymenT in that short periOd that you still have the stomaCh to enJoy it XD ahahAHAHha

after that hor.. we juSt went to Midvalley as planned{fiNallY, one plaN worked out XD} aNd i separated frOm Mum and the lIl Ones{My siSters and bRothers ^.^} and went to cheCk out the JobStreet eXhibition ^.^ To see whAT kiNd of caReErs there are in this sMall part of the world XD ahAHAH aNd there I met a girl by the name of Michelle and while evEryOne was older than me there and taller tOo,{ seriOusly yOu kNow, nOt One of theM is even my heIght} Michelle was my heiGht and just 2 years oLder than me XD ahAHAhah ^.^ Well, we weNt toGether,o after she borrowed my pen to fill the Reg form and we fOund out that we're bOth gOing alone so she suggested that we gO together ^.^ so we dId and it has it's bad siDe and gOod side to it XD like cause i'M Not really that familiar yEt wiTh her so whEn i suCcessfuLly gEt piCked and on-the--spot intervIew for work oNe, then feel kiNda baD for making her wait for me bUt the gOod siDe is at leaSt caN help her overcome her fear to aSk arOund for work laer ^.^ because she was realLy shy,o.. at leaSt got friend adi she feel more suPpORted in a way? ^.^ ahAHAha

welL, I had 3 intervIews tOday,

1st wiTh Sushi King{it's beCause they were one of the very few fOod-relAted bOoths there X) it's eiTher Sushi King, Burger King or Kopitiam XD} aHAHAha i picked Sushi King XD

2nd was wiTh a biG Pharmaceutical Company{I know it's a bIt out of my iNdustry bUt juSt thOught,"Just tRy laer, you'll never kNow.. yOu miGht meet somEoNe whO miGht be the neXt bIggeSt cUstomer to your restaurant ^.^"}

the 3rd was wiTh more liKe an AdvertiSing Academy{www.95percent.com.my} ^.^ ahAhahA They have this RealLy cOol program{IDEA RAWKSTARRS!} for 3 mOnths straights, from the History of Advertising, it's core purpose and development, How to strategIse with your ideas and nOt get drOwned in it, To OverfLow your bank of iDeas and take oFf all thOse bLocks that may evEr fall in the miDdle of yOur brainstorming =D I really RealLy Really wannA leaRn this, becAuse... bloggie, do yOu kNow that cOmpanies speNd thousands and thOusands on AdveRtising for whatever Product and serVices they havE and hOw nice will it be fOr my restaurants neXt time, if you know the bIg MisSus bOss can alReady prOmote/aDvertise her restauRaNts not oNly thrOugh hired-Ly madE iMpresSions priNted s XD bUt just thrOugh self-created iMages prInted on papers and pOsters hung acrOss fLyovers aNd down laMp-Post ^.^ HEHEHE the kEyword here is SElF-crEaTeD,yeh! =D SAves mOneY and PrOfeSsionallY Done tOo,mind yOu ^.^ beSides, it means aNother wAy to pOur my iMagination and CreatIvity to the world tOo! =D ahAHAHAHa ^.^

As the niGht cOmes, it's tIme to filL my tUmmy tOo XD aNd darm it, I had a bibiMbap. It was sO fiLling that I regret oRderiNg it beCause there gOes my whole week of gYm's effort o XD ahAHAHHA oh-well, there's alwaYs anOther week to cOme XD ahAHAHAH P.S. my thIgh muScles's swolLen adi aler, acCording to Ms.Mandy{my deAr ballet teaCher ^.^}, so no maChines for me till it heals, o no joGging too you know, just walking oNlY can =/ if nOt she say I won't be aBle to do a simple Grande Battement alSo.. =( *siGh* so these few weeks, juSt praCtise daNcing lor yah ^.^

HEHeHeHe.. bUt on to HapPier thIngs, I bought 1 pair of shOes and 1 pair of slip-Ons tOday XD ahAHAh The shOe's ReD! fOr CNy mer and the slIpper's Blue-iSh and then cOlourfuL strap One,o ^.^ and now, no one should siMply borrow my sliPper adi laer, everytIme i wanna wear,suDdenly either one strap missing adi or the cuShion-y part flat adi laer >.< that ="/">

did aNyone nOtice anOther persOn's poSt down there? XD That persOn eveRyoNe, is my daRling, Mr.T o! =D ahAHaha bUt he's so lazy to blog OnE laer XD so maybe onCe in a bLue mOon OnLY can see anotehr poSt of hIs,o XD ahAHahA

bUt for yOur veRy firSt poSt, Mr.T, I woUld like to eXpreSs MAnY MAnY..

KaMSamiDa, ThomaS-shi! ^.^ for beiNg so hardwOrking yesterday to pOst a POST to liGht up my bLog a bIt bIt,o =D

ahAHAhah I fEel so vErY GREAT tOnIghT! =D AhahahAH *freE huGs for eveRyone!* =P XD ahAHAHA oFF i go to bed adi laer ^.^ I think Mr.T fell asleep adi thOugh.. so long didn't rePly adi One XD hiHihih.. I shall go nOw.. see You,bLoGgie ^.^ night night.. *yawn* ^o^

hello

2009-01-17T18:34:00.000+08:00

Hello to all Stella's friends. It's Stella's idea to ask me contribute in her blog. So, i'll just type a few words. Okay, bye bye :) oh and btw i'm Thomas Yu. ;)

It's Okay ^.^

2009-01-17T00:47:00.000+08:00

M{s}{r].BlogGie..

Today's a pretTy weird day XD ahahah bUt pretty interestIng tOo XD ahAhah yOu know, i went to gym today and that receptiOn peOple ar! XD Feel like *slap slAp* them ar XD AhaHAh Yesterday ask them whether can use the eMpty stuDio for my ballet practise or nOt, {it's eMpty aNyway XD} then they say come today at 10am then talk to the manager theN I went today morning and they say they dOn't know whether the manager will be cOming or not!! XD HuH? where can like that one leh.. so Un-pRo-ness oNe XD AHahah But i shall let them go this time laer because *TaM tRam tAm Tam!* =D they let me uSe secretly the empty stuDio while the manager's away XD heheheh =D

aNd theN tOday went to Sunway aNd

FaReweLl, ChYNa.. till we meet again ^.^ in September riGht? *wiNk wiNk* =D

we had a bYe bye party for Chyna Kwek Suet Ling,o ^.^ my fellow DeltaLand neiGhbOur and One of the fEw ind peOple who always borrow me her Physics notes one XD hihIih XD so kInd XD She'll be gOing to Aussie o tomorrow night. sorry yah, can't send you off tomorrow >.<

aahh.. and we celebRated Kelsey and Hwan Juet's earLy B'Day XD ahahah bUt they were tOo sHy to do "paPaya" laer XD yErrRr.. nOt syIok laer! XD ahaha bUt they do lOok cUte though when they stand there so shy-ly balancing in their mInds, should they or should theY nOt do The "PapaYa" XD aAhahahAH You adorable UnderaGe couple XD ahahAha

Oh and yOu know tOday Kelvin aSked how was Lafite XD and i *alMost fainted* =P oF all they days that I didn't call them to ask abOut my jOb application no One aSked about it but the one day that I called to the office and Inquire abOut it aNd gOt rejeCted XD sOmeone aSked me abOut it,o.. aahAHA aNyhow, I am nOt sHy anymOre to admit that Lafite dOesn't want me =/ *sob sob* bUt no worries, STella's oK-Ay ^.^ ahAHAH and will be gOing for an Interview in STarbuCks tomorrow mOrning before gym! ^.^ and thiS Sunday, have a liL viSit to the JobStreet convention in Midvalley to just have a peek at what's available in the world of caReers XD ahAHAh alSo.. Patrick I will go with yOur adviCe on the "aS manY interviews in Hotels aS I caN in One day",yaH! ^.^ So i need not waste tiMe waiting for a week and get rejeCted ^.^ ahAHA If for one thing why they wouldn't wnat me, i thiNk it's juSt my yOuthful age,o =P XD Ahahaaha But I will show them, I will be GreAt someday ^.^ and they'll lOok back and, -15 years later-*loOking at the Forbes's Top 10 riChest peOple and spOts a yOung sMall lady at the tOp5* "Ei, I've seen her somewhere befOre.... *think* aAaH! that's riGht! She was the little giRl who came for an interview to waSh the diShes!* {weK wEk weeek.. My iMagInatIon's tOo SuPer laer =P XD} tHen they'll fiNally see! XD ahAhahAh..

alright, I'm gOing to sleep adi,o.. Mr.T's not feeling so well these days,o. And I'm worried and *drOwed in dileMma*. =/ I hOpe you'll be alRight sOon yeh! ^.^

NiGht nIght, bLoGgie =D

~baBy baBy, shout back to me and tell me that i mean something to yOu! {XD}~

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shhhh.. wei wei! ask you sOmething.. XD

#18 DE: >.< JaNg jaNg JaNg!! ^.^

#12 DE: {A liL Zest of FuN and a wholesOme of brainstOrming..}

#11 DE: spaCe oUt aNd reaCh in..deep into yOur mind XD

#10 DE: A liL tiNt of MorNing kindneSs =P

#6 DE: WoRK WoRK ANd cUt cUt =D

#5 DE: what caN I do tOday? XD

#3 DE: InteRestIng and MariNAtIng my soul wiTh ExcitemeNtXD

aim high, The Sky Is The Limit.. Not AnyMore! XD

How short can life be..

HAPPY CNY,yO! =)

20th-22nd My liL CarEer STarters ^.^

*bluEk* =P

HEY there, YoU lOveLy SuNshiNe yOu! =D

hello

It's Okay ^.^

pretend tweeet XD

bluEk =P